ChiaYing Life

A little update.

2011-03-26T22:56:00.001+08:00

Life have been great this year.
Eventhough the whole gang with years of friendship has ruined, i guess i'm alright.
Life have to go on anyway.

It's March now. Going to April soon.
I cried before, laugh before, being depressed before, cried my whole day before, smile my whole day out before and have my love ones with me everyday.
It's great, isn't it?

I may feel hurt. But someone, someone really special has covered all my sorrow with all the loves. =)

Oh ya, before i forget. I have more things to share.
This year YE got the Achivers Workshop.
Without this event, i won't know that i actually own a group of "friends".
They finally show up their real soul after the event.
GREAT.
I do know friends from that event. So yea~

Nothing much for now. I'm studying currently. Back bone hurting as usual =X
Toodles!

Prediction

2010-12-02T15:02:00.000+08:00

I guess at my own words;
I rethink everything;
I predict something..
Something i didn't want it to happen.
But it's just too late.

I let my mind flow;
Thinking about the past..
How it happens.
I think back about Now,
Wondering, will it happen again?

The Angel and the Devil;
Both arguing during my prediction..
But who am i suppose to listen to?
Angel makes sense..
Devil make sense too.

I try to listen to Angle;
Telling me, "Hey! Don't think about the past. Just lead the future"
I nodded and smile.

But Devil is interupting.
Telling me, "Just accept the fact that it gonna happen again"
I nodded a little and depress again.

A life.
Do you prefer sitting at the corner emo-ing or smilling happilly to everyone?
There is only one happiness in this life, to love and be loved.

The Caption said, 'Life Is So Unfair'
But to me, it's not.

My prediction has turn to a conclusion now.
I wonder.
Why can't happiness last longer?
Why must i always be the one chasing after the happiness while..
the sadness chassing after me?

I'm so speechless...

=)

2010-09-16T15:07:00.001+08:00

Helloo. I didn't update for long dyy. Heh. I'm not lazy or busy. I'm blogging at other places instead. :D Shhhhh. HAHAHA. Okay, okay. I would like to crap today. It's a HOLIDAY!! Sadly, one day only. == i'm doing homeworks. Copying notes. Sigh. My exam is coming soon. It's next month. Fast right? Everyone is busy these days. Form 5 are having SPM Trial next week. And Form 3 is having PMR in two weeks time. Busy right. Haha. I want outing. Hopefully i can have some fun with all my friends after everyone's exam. :) Go out and dance in the shopping mall. Lol. I'm kidding. But go out and shop till we crazy *nod, nod, nod* :D Then can can can SNAP pictures like crazy! Muahahahaha. Oops. I'm day dreaming again. Teehee. Well, well, well. Everything will come true after exam. It's December on that time. Hmmm~ But Ewei, let's go out SOON! We go high hah. Call Wing and Jolene they all along XD *cough* will WAIT and SEE. =)

Crap is done!
haha. I should go back to my homeworks.
Byeessss! :D

HELLO WORLD.

2010-09-10T00:16:00.001+08:00

I AM ACTUALLY HAVING FUN AT MY GRANDMA'S HOUSE (ON THE PHONE I MEAN *COUGH*) BUT ONCE I CAME HOME, MY MOOD TURNED BAD. ALL THANKS TO SOMEONE. ANYWAY, I SHOULD JUST KEEP HIGH! ^^

First of all, 'WE' aunty. IS AWESOME!! Lol.
Lau Ee, i want the LINK!! ==
I give up on finding! Cannot get one. ish.
I know i have chocolates! ^^
Don't understand our Patrol Luanguage? How sad. :P
SHOPAHOLIC! :D
TIRED.
HOT!!! OH HOT!!!

HOT means HOT lah. Need air cond kayy! XD I gotta go off and do nothing dy. Byeeeeees.

30.8.10

2010-08-30T17:12:00.003+08:00

A day in school.
With baju kurung -.-
like wth? :D
I tripped over my own baju kurung for like hundreds time.
and then stand up.
Takan i stay there and wait for siapa-siapa to bring me up? LOL

I can say, this Year's Merdeka Celebration is much more better than last year's.
At least i laugh in the hall. Not emo. :P
We were suppose to bring instrument and have an Orchestra Rehersal today.
Know what?
End up a dog bark. *ahem*
Itu orang say tak payah practise woh. Then call us to practise masuk dan keluar.
WASTE TIME!

After the rehersal for going in and out for like 3 times, we can finally go back to class.
Before i go, something happen lah.
Mai ask me. I very pantang to say through internet one.
Paisheh.
And i walk back my class alone angrily or i can say sadly.
I go in and throw my violin, then ran out from the class.

Trying to look for Ewei but can't get her.
Then i ran to find Shinq?
I get her in Computer Lab. Sitting infront of the screen. ==
After a few minutes of nonsense. I finally went inside and sat beside her.
Wondering what she's doing and what am i gonna tell her.
She's SDO-ing. Like wow? And i terpikat, ugh!

I look at her playing.. without any word.
And my mind finding a way out from where i'm staying.
And i feel like crying.. SHOUTING?
Then Shinq gave me a chance to express through playing. She know what i want.
and paisheh Jasmine. I don't mean to potong your line.
I need to PLAY! :D
since you have play like 5 times before i go in :P

Still i can't find a way to explain what's wrong with me.
Someone is poking me from the side and i lose my game -.-
Then recess time and i found myself quite recover. LOL

And after school is awesome?
i have a lecturer to lecture me..
Dia tak mind telling me everything.
Lol seriously. I love you but i prefer your sibling more.
You make me lost trust one you!
Like what you did to others.
I'm speechless..
Time for SDO. Bye! :)

Oh hahahaha, i'm having a BETTER mood now. At least i know where to go when i'm sad and need accompany and where to go when i'm lost! :D Tata.

LOST AND FOUND

2010-08-29T00:19:00.002+08:00

*in my mind*
i don't know lahhh..
so ma huan you know?
stupid brain,
can't you just stoppppp thinking?
ugh. i need peace okay!
*thinking ends*

anyway, HELLLOOOOOOOOOOOOO to?
myself.
i lost myself.
and i saw mee myself through mirror.
so, i'm saying helloooooooo to MYSELF.

i belong to that town. full with laughter and loves.
sometimes, i get hurt, i might be sad and down.
but i still prefer there.
compare to where i'm living now,
it's seriously different.
i dislike this town.
no laughter. no care. no loves. no friends. no memorable memories.
what i got here is sorrow. tears flowing down. thinking back at the past. hopin' everything will be fine.
i just get tired for living here, like a statue.

they say they don't deserve love when they actually do.
they chooses others but not me when they are having a hard time.
they don't know how i feel nor what i'm thinking.

i misses my old town. I MISSES ALL THOSE PEOPLE
especially my both most understanding friend. :')
i misses them alot. alot. alot. i want to go back and stay by their side.
having a good time with them and chill out on the phone till late midnight/early morning and hang out in shopping mall. :) awwww.

it's like lost and found. i lost myself and i found myself back. besides, it's like i lost my mind and i found it back again.
i belong to be there.
i deserve to be there.
i misses them very much.
i hate now. i hate what is happening now.
i wanted to go back.
and i have decide to give up what is happening now and go back!
im going back. I miss you both! Lecture me kay. :')

*hug pillow, cover myself in blanket. Oww, i feel warm. like hugs* :)

Life?!

2010-08-25T16:38:00.001+08:00

*sigh* haih. I turn up and look at the sky. It was blue. =) I told myself that i'm going to have a great day with all my friends in school. Then i think about the day before now. I was crying. I don't accept the way my life goes to. And i was thinking so inmature that i will die or what. But some people in my life cheer me up and they share with me with their experiences that they had before. Change is what i needed. Hope is what i need to bring up, and darkness is waiting for me to brighten it. Like i say, i'm having a hard time to change.

You walk away just like that. I run after you and get you to ask what's wrong? And you tell me you doesn't want to care anymore. You say it's hard having me as a friend, and i can tell you. I knew it. You don't bother anymore. But i will have all those memories by myself.

I promised i will be strong. I will stand up by myself when i fall. I will look to the beautiful blue understanding sky instead of staying in an eclipse world. But you know without you guiding, it's so hard to be strong.

I always sesat without you. Thinking of so many question but without any answer. I thought of giving up but it's so hard to let go. What about holding on? It's still the same.

i tried so hard and go to you. But before i reach where the place you are sitting, you have already running away.

If you say you've forgive me, Make It Happen. Don't just say. prove it!

*sigh*

MEMORIES IS WHAT YOU LEAVE FOR ME

But you changed just a day. Everyone sees the way you change towards me.

*speechless*

I DON'T WANT TO BE EMO!

I DON'T WANT TO BE UNHAPPY, WHEN EVERYONE IS ENJOYING.

I was happy. But you ruin my mood as usual.

I don't know how to speak anymore.

THIS IS WHAT I MADE :D LOL, BEST ONE EVER! ;D

i still wondering when's the end of this drama. I'm tired of everything!

HELLOOOOO

2010-08-20T22:57:00.000+08:00

Helloooo ;D
It has been days since i've update thingss
Olala~ Lol.
To be under self-control. I will only go online during weekends.
Nyehehe. Believe me not?
I can do it ^^
Hmmm~ Come online may be fun.
But not long.

It's bored. Like now,
i'm staring at my tabs.
Got Facebook, Twitter, Formspring, Plurk, You Tube, Picnik and Blog.
No notifications, No respond, No update, and No nothing.
XD XD XD
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I'm back online today after leaving the computer for like 3 days? :D
wheeeee~
HAHAHAHAHA
And my friends is having different feelings, and thoughs.

I can see that Ewei is unhappy! Wondering why happy moments pass so fast but not for sad one. :l (But dear, you have to bare with it :) It's life. You have to live with it)
I can see that Winnie is kind of pissed off by someone. Lol, not mentioning! :P (Chill mother, chill)
I can see that SOME PEOPLE HAS NOTHING BETTER TO DO IN THEIR LIFE AND COMING TO DISTURD OTHER PEOPLE'S LIFE. MYOB is what I CAN SAY! *pissed off*
And mostly i can see is Why? Why? Why? Why oh Why? Why and Why? Oh Why? Why? Why? Why?

AHAHAHA I'm bored.
I wanted so much to sleeeepppppp
But i still refuse to go.
D: D: D: D: D:
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
I'm HUNGRY!
I feel like eating Haagen Dazs mango ice-cream!!!
Domino's Pizza!!!
Laksa!!!
McD Fries!!!
Sakae Sushi!!!
Ohhhh Myyyyy... I WANT FOODD!!

Songs, oh songs,
I GOT IT IN MY MIND!!
Dynamite
Knock Knock
What Are You Waiting For
ANDDD LOADSSS MOREEEE :D

I THROW MY HANDS UP IN THE AIR SOMETIMES, SAYING AYOOO, GOTTA LET GO. I WANNA CELEBRATE AND LIVE MY LIFE, SAYING AYOOO, BABY LET'S GO!~

ONCE IN A LIFETIME :D

2010-08-13T16:10:00.001+08:00

After a long time asking people for pictures, i finally can finish a video in two days. Sometimes when i tell people that I HEART YOU, I SAYANG YOU, I LOVE YOU and ETC. They somehow give me an 'Oh' feeling. Maybe they tough i'm just saying it? Or maybe i'm Crapping? O.o I AM SO NOT CRAPPING! If i say I Love You, means i do kay. When they give me answer like, "Oh" "Lame lah you" or "LOL" I feel blank. Is like you loves your friends so much but they don't. *sigh* Well, so after you see this video, I don't have to say anything because you will surely understand what my video means. Have fun! :) *smile*

BYE BYE

2010-08-01T22:17:00.000+08:00

I'M HERE TO SAY GOODBYE.

I WILL BE BACK BUT I

DON'T KNOW WHEN. I

KNOW IT'S FUN NOT TO SEE

ME ANYMORE. HAVE FUN!

I Don't Know

2010-07-31T00:09:00.001+08:00

Life is making me tired. I wish i got a day to sit down and do whateva i want~ But it's imposible. =) My position will be very bad because my Mid Term ruin everything~ I should have put TH there. ARGH! thinking of it make me even Sim Tia. I know myself, most probably i will be going down to Third Class next year. I do not have a choice. 40% for Mid Term kay. Mang siao siao. So i have console myself in many ways. I think that i should appreciate the chance that God gives me to be in third class. (if i'm going) Since next year is a PMR year, i can be more quiet to study and concentrate during lessons. =) Then i'm sure i'll be able to go the next year. Ahahaha. Most probably will be choosing Perdagangan. I don't really like Science =) Anyway, it's my FIRST TIME to like going third class. I never never ever been there before. I'm always maintaing myself is second class. Course i doesn't want to go First and i doesn't want to go Third :D But this time, FAIL LAH ME!! Who call me to sick ah? =( Well, i'll use next year to fight up for sure~ I always got the feeling of GONE ADY LAH!! Since God gives me a time to fall from the place i used to be. It's time for me to learn how to stand up on my own :)

So if i'm really going to the different class as my other close friends, i wish they could still remember WHO AM I because i know something that no ones know :D Our class is just a corridoor apart, i hope you guys won't leave me alone like you do NOW. I know how to find my friends that would cared for me now. But i couldn't do it next year. So please, don't ever leave me again!~ I'm not that kind to always forgive and forget!

RE WEEK

2010-07-23T18:24:00.000+08:00

First of all, Yean Shinq ahh. Nothing lahh~ I saja nia~ AHAHAHA You know i'm high rightttt, High people is like that one XD Btw, just continue reading if you want XD

We're actually having a competition in drama among 6 groups. We have to act out what we get in a piece of paper. Everything is about families. The conflict in your family. What we get is 'Kewangan'. We have to act out a family that is involved in Money Loosing situation. We're Group 4 and our members is Me, Ewing, Jolene, Josephine Tay, Wan Chen, Jill Yeoh and Khai Li. Our leader is JILLY~ XD

So, our story goes like this. It's really funny and intresting. Abo we won't won for that XD it makes me hyper :D Let's see the description~

Jill- Mr Yeoh (Dad who lost his work)
Ewing- Mrs. Yeoh (Mr Yeoh's wife, Majong lover)
Jolene- Shopa (Elder daughter, branded's lover and also known as Shopaholic)
Chia Ying (ME)- Ho (Second Daughter, branded's lover and also known as Shopaholic, Mrs's Yeoh friend)
Wan Chen- Lic (Youngest Daughter, branded's lover and also known as Shopaholic too)
Josephine- Boss (Mr Yeoh's Company boss) and Mrs Tay (Mrs Yeoh's friend, A very rich women who love to show off, Majong lover)
Khai Li- Mrs. *something, i forget* (Majong lover, Mrs Yeoh's friend)

~One day, Mr yeoh go to work. He fail in his work and he made his company almost bankrupt. So, the boss called him and wanted to tell him something.~

Josephine (Boss) : Ahh, Mr Yeoh ah. I got something to tell you. It's about, about, about...
Jill (Mr Yeoh) : About what? Faster!! I need to go toilet!
Josephine (Boss) : It's about you. I'm sorry but we have to fired you right now course you have bring bad to our company and it neally broke!
Jill (Mr Yeoh) : What? How could you do this to be. WAHHHH~ T.T *cry and run away*

~At home~
-In Master Bedroom- (ring, ring, ring, ring, ring)

Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : Hello~
Khai Li : Eh Mrs Yeoh ah. You want to play Majong anot?
Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : WHAT? Play majong again ah? Yesterday we played 36 rounds dy still not enough?
Khai Li : Aiya, that one yesterday ma. Today don't want meh?
Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : Aiya, i lazy la. Now busy putting nail polish.
Khai Li : But Mrs Tay is coming wor. The RICH one~
Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : What? Mrs tay is coming? Okay, i'll come now! Wait for me!!

-In the Living Room-

Jolene : *whispering to herself* WAH! I want this and this and this. Muahahaha i'm gonna call dad buy all this for me XD
Chia Ying : *gossiping with Wan Chen* Eh you know ah. Nowadays that Josephine hoh.. *bla bla bla*
Wan Chen : Yalah.. she hoh~ *bla bla bla*
Jolene : Eh, you all ah. Don't gossip about other people la. Not good okay!
Chia Ying & Wan Chen : Suak lor.
Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : Eh, Shopa, ho, lic [SHOPAHOLIC] take this money and go eat whateva you want. Sakae Sushi also can. Nah~ take go.
SHOPAHOLIC : Walau Eh. 1000 bucks just for our lunch? *look at each other and shout* SHOPPING TIME!! WOOHOO~ *run out from Bio Lab*

~At Mrs Khai Li's house for Majong~

Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : *trying to show off her medium cincin on her hand* Aiyo, nowadays ah, so HOTTT hoh!?! *wave her hand around to make us see her ring*
Chia Ying (Majong Friend) : WAH! Mrs Yeoh ah~ *in a slang* So "BRIGHT" hoh.
Khai Li : Yalah. So big ah.
Josephine : Hmph~ *soft*
Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : Ahahaha. My hubby bought for me one la.
Josephine : PONG!! *take the majong and her BIG diamond ring shine the lights to us* Ahahaha really meh. I also felt hot lah.
All : WAHHHH!! Bright lohh~ *hand cover eyes to peek*
Josephine : *Ahem* Ahahaha
Chia Ying : Wah, Mrs Tay. So BRIGHTTTT ahh. Beh tong lor.
Josephine : Got meh? No lahhh
Chia Ying : Wah who buy for you one? How much?
Ewing : *jealous* Yalah. How much?
Josephine : My darling buy for me one la. How much? Cheap cheap nia la. Ahahaha *evil soft laugh*
Chia Ying : How much is your cheap then? *annoyed but still act curious*
Josephine : 10 million la. Cheap right?
All : 10 MILLION? CHEAP? WALAU EH!
Josephine : *shiok-sendiri* Aiya, PONG!! I win dy la Mrs Yeoh. Please pay.
Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : Nah, *take out 1500 bucks from her wallet*
Josephine : Wah. Thanks hah. I was wondering you still have money to buy ring and play majong with us meh?
Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : Why not?
Josephine : Hah? Your husband also get fired from his company dy. Now all bankrupt dy lor. YOU DON'T KNOW MEH?
Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : HAHAHA no la. Don't simply say.
Josephine : It's true what!! Nah la~ take back your money. I kesian you nia *teasing*
Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : NO! WAIT! I want to go home and find out!

~At home. Master Bedroom~

Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : Eh darling~
Jill (Mr Yeoh) : Oh dear. You're back! How was it?
Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : Oh, fine~ No wait. You lost your job is it?
Jill (Mr Yeoh) : Errmmm.. I'm sorry Darling
Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : OMG! How could you? *open wallet and shout* I JUST LOST 1150 bucks to them okay!!
Jill (Mr Yeoh) : It's okay.. *hug and cry*

~Suddenly, SHOPAHOLIC ran into their room~

Jolene : Daddy! Daddy! I want to buy this. *show magazine*
Chia Ying : Daddy, Daddy! I want to buy this, this and this.
Wan Chen : Daddy! Daddy! Daddy! I want this, this, this, this, this, this, and this.
Jill (Mr Yeoh) : Okay girls. You girls go out first. I need to settle something with your mummy.
Three : Oh okay~ *walk out the room*
Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : *sob* so how? Our daughter still wanna go shopping.
Jill (Mr Yeoh) : It's okay. Let us bring them for a last shopping and we'll tell them kay!

-In the Shopping Mall-
Three Daughters : OMGGG~ AHHHHH!!
Jolene : Daddy! I want thisss~
Chia Ying : Daddy! Here! I want this and this.
Wan Chen : Daddy i want that too~
Chia Ying : OMG! LV!
Jolene : Roxy!
Chia Ying : Body Glove
Jolene : Quick Silver
Chia Ying : Converse
Jolene Tropicana
Jolene and Chia Ying : DADDY! I want all this.
Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : STOP!! NO WAY!! You girls only can have this *take out three pens*
Jolene : No! I want LV!
Chia Ying : I want Converse!
Wan Chen : I want Roxy!
Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : No! Just go pay and go home.
Three Daughters : Aiyerrr :(

~When they reach home. Mr and Mrs yeoh decide to tell their daughters about their family lacking of money~
Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : Ah Shopa, Ah Ho, Ah Lic. SHOPAHOLIC, Come here now! Stand in a line.
Three : Yes mummy?
Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : Baawahh *start crying and pull a tissue to wipe off tears* Darling ah. you tell them~
Chia Ying : Mummy, why you cry?
Jolene : Yea, Mummy what happened?
Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : Ahhwaahhhbahhhwahhhh~ *cry even louder*
Jill (Mr Yeoh) : Okay, don't ask anymore.
Chia Ying and Jolene : But why mummy cry until like that?
Jill (Mr Yeoh) : Aiya, period pain la!!
Three : Oh cheh. Like that also cry until so chi cham.
Chia Ying : Nah mummy~ You need tissue anot. *pass another tissue*
Jolene : Or mummy, you want "pet" anot?
[EVERYONE IS LAUGHING.. EVEN TEACHER..MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA]
Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : *sob* actually is like that one. Your daddy lost his work. We're now bankrupt!
Three Daughter : WHAT? OMG!
Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : So you girls have to promise me not to spend anymore money. We only left 500 bucks. *take out money*
Three Daughter : OMGGG!! Am i dreaming? *cry*
Chia Ying : Means no more shopping? *sob*
Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : Yes. No more shopping!
Jolene : No more LV?
Chia Ying : No more Converse?
Wan Chen : No more Roxy?
Jolene : No more Body glove?
Chia Ying : No more Quick Silver?
Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : Yea. Nothing! Pen also no more~
Jolene : How about "pet"?
Jill (Mr Yeoh) : Get it from your friends!
Three Daughters : WHAT? "pet" also need to take from FRIENDS?
Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : Yea.
Chia Ying and Jolene : Mempersiahsuehkan!
Ewing (Mrs Yeoh) : So now, no more spending..

~The whole family hug each other and cry~ THE END! XD

I PROMISE =)

2010-07-14T19:47:00.000+08:00

i won't cry anymore. i won't and i promise. i know what i should do. Maybe i think too much. But i will stop thinking. I know it wouldn't help much. So i should STOP! Believe in myself wey. I really need to do so. Camp is coming. ENJOY! Nothing else is more important than being happy. I was crying. I ran through my phone call list. I go from top to end alot of time. And i found no one. But i stop at Y. And i found Yean Shinq. Then i stop at E. I found Ewei. I was lucky. I knew that. :) I should be happy. I'm a PRS. I should set a good character to everyone. I should be happy. Then they will be happy. =) *wipe of tears and smile* :)

YOU KNOW?

2010-07-14T19:24:00.000+08:00

I don't know what. I really don't know. I'm sad. But i just have to live with it. To say i'm sad, no one cares. To say i'm happy, it's just a lie. I used to think. THINK alot. Think of what mistake i've done? Think of what kind of sorry am i saying. Think of what is the way to quit this way. Think of who am i. I know i'm Chia Ying. But i'm not the old Chia Ying. I used to be simple. But i turned into complicated. My mind is full with question and problems. My heart is full of sorrow and sadness. Someone told me, let it be. It will be fine. You just have to be yourself. But i know myself. I will be really down. Really really really down. But i'm always working on it. Not to depress. Just be happy by a SMILE. =) You're always gonna be the one person. No matter what you do or what you say or how many times you hurt me. I just can't let you go because YOU mean so much to me. No one know that i was pretending all along. I faked the happinese when i'm sad and said nothing was wrong. Looking in the mirror, i sees a broken smile striving for perfection. I'm just tired of all this rejection. I'm a girl who's heart has been broken and put back together with crazy glue. And was able to make it look like new. I'M REALLY REALLY REALLY LOST! ='(

Time to choose. =)

2010-07-12T17:20:00.001+08:00

Not gonna scared of installation. Not gonna worry about what will happen. I should try to enjoy this last year. Go to camp and have fun! Go for installation without worrying. Go for Senior's Farewell ~~sadly~~ happilly. And then start to distract everything by hyper-ing. Everything gonna be fine if i'm willing to put some hope and let it to the time. It's not the right time to be depress but ~~sad~~ happy! Next year only is the year for emo-ing. :) So now, kuai kuai go study, and have fun! Don't waste any of the tears. You still gonna use it on the last day of school. Study hard and improve marks. Be happy with everything. Chase all those ~~happy~~ unhappy stuffs and think on the bright side. And this will be sweet and nice :D I'm going to tahan, wait, tahan, wait and tahan. Smile but not cry. Have fun but not sad. Everything is going to be fine. =) Yay! I'm so happy! XD This is so fake == But it's okay la. Not everyone can see my blog! XD Tata~

OUCH

2010-07-10T11:04:00.000+08:00

This is what happen to me yesterday. And i'm suffering now. Walk also hard. Sit also hard. Lay down also hard. It hurts. This is what happen when i'm fail in jumping out from the tramp of the train while it's still moving in Botanical Garden. :D Others jump out sucuessfully except for me. Aiyo, I'm FAIL la. Why la i'm so clumsy? xD Now like lau ee nia. DO what also cannot. I wonder how am i going to walk in Gurney later?

A moment of ME!!!

2010-07-09T14:59:00.001+08:00

Hey, peps. Yean Shinq's here! Anyway I just won a rice cooker this morning during the green run lucky draw. It was so funny I was shouting *Selling rice cooker, selling rice cooker one for RM20* (hey, it's cheep okay)

This year is like the greatest year! PYKETT got Champion for GREEN RUN!

This for chia ying.
Boo who?

Green Run

2010-07-09T11:54:00.000+08:00

Wheeeeee~ PYKETT WON AGAIN~ AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA TOO HAPPY DY!! *dance* Oh, paisheh. I'm using Caps Lock :D Anyway, today is a day that created a history in my life. Aiya, of course i'll appreicate it la. XD Well, well, well. I run all my life today! I run through all those sad moments in two rounds. AHAHA that's my target for running. I told myself, if i finish running.. then i can have a new happy life =) Don't be silly. I'm just encouraging myself in my way. When we started running, i actually did think of not running. But i used two minutes to rethink. I said, if i win, I will help Pykett. If we win, My president and comander will be very happy and it's their last year. If i win, I will HAVE TWO ICE-CREAM from my comander. So, i took that chance to run! Wheeeee~ Of course i will start to jog first. I ran with Jolene, Ewei and Ewing. Ewei and Ewing slow down behind so i'm the only one running with Jo. Slowly, she slow down too~ She just stay there. She tough i will stop like what i did last year. But i did not! I increase my speed and went infront. After awhile, i feel tired and can't breath. SO it's time to walk. XD ahahaha.

I comanded myself. *breath in, breath out, breath in, breath out* I talked to myself. *crazy* I told myself that, "Just rest for two minutes and start running. My target is everything and mostly is WATER". By that time, i really thirsty. I had told Yean Shinq to give me water in the halfway but she did not -.- So i finish running the FIRST round. Everyone was like cheering for me to run! Shinq said, "Faster run, remember your ice-cream ya". Miss Peri said "Run, just keep running". Danielle said, "Ying, run. I give you ice-cream". Same goes to Czen Yhi. Then Su Fen called me RUN! Everyone is screaming RUN. And i'm thinking FAINT! -.-

And of course i continue my second round like a mad person. I ran, stop, ran and stop. Whoa~ Then i talk to myself again. "If i run and run.. i will get my water. I will see Shinq somewhere here". But unfortunaly, she did not appear == i got NO WATER! So i ran to the ending line and WOOT! Yay~ :D I tough i will be at 30++ dy. But miracle. I'm 21! It's a big improvement man! Last year, i only got 60. == mempersiasuehkan XD So i went to get my water. AHAHAHA i tough comander will be kind enough to buy me at least one ice-cream. But she did not~ She gave me a half hug and said YOU WILL GET FREE ICE-CREAM LATER. EVERYONE WILL GET! == Kiam Siap! *you owe me one bucks koh kay*

I found out that Jolene and Ewei haven't finish running yet, So i ran to find them. Cheer for them and stay with them. AHAHA this is the time i cramp my leg. WOOHOO~ == Swt! But it's not worst so i let it be and we back! After not long, i helped Shinq to take her bottle. We can't reach it. So i stretch and BOOM! My nerves is killing me. My leg go worse and i can't WALK! Wheeeee~ xD

Time goes by and we found out that we're really rotting. So, i went to sit the car which bring us around the whole park with Snowy, Brenda, Stephanie and two seniors. Lazy to mentioned their name la. xD And when we about to reached, all of them decided to jump down from the car which is still moving. And i FAIL TO DO SO! I fell down to the floor and brush over. Can you imgine? XD And it bleeds. Oh yea~ xD *sorry, my brain abit senget* And all those peopleare so Kin Cheong. Tsk..tsk..tsk.. *shiok-sendiri* Siew Yen was shouting. Jolene was shock. Wan Chen was screaming, Yean Shinq was teasing and Ewei is laughing because of my silly-ness. == She said i always get BIG RED ANGPOW! xD

Teacher announce that Pykett Won for Green Run and all off us SHOUTED xD too happy~ Woohoo~ And then everything end at 11.15 am. We're suppose to go back at 12. And we went for the car again. I was tention. Scared that i fell again XD So, Pat, Sue and Joanne join us with the ride. Pat belanja us for the ride. WOOHOO~ I LOVE YOU PATTY! XD She pay for Me, Ewei, Wan Chen, Ewing, Sue, Joanne and Jolene. :D So kind ah her. xD

During the ride. I felt alot of FUN. Ewei said so tooo~ We laugh all the way round tend to Pat and Joanne joke and the way how they insult. It's funny. WE laugh alot alot alot and alot. <3
And yea, siao po. We even shouted at those two we taking pictures for their wedding with wedding grown and all those stuff. xD Oh ya, And one little boy. The one that make me go AWWWWWW he's so cute. He waves at us and give us a goodbye kiss.. SO CUTE!!! I want him to be my boyfriend! HAHAHAHA LOL. Imposible. Be my anak got la. I so old dy~ Sad~ :D

Then we reach and continue fooling around. We laugh alot again~ Pat came and slap my hand when i was about to tear the cotton on my leg which i fell just now. Pain~ My hand is even pain than my leg. The cotton is sticking on it. So Kristie came and wanted to pull it out. Kristle asked me not to look at it so she hug me and i cover my eyes. POP~ It's off. No pain, No shouting! XD And then i came home.

This is how's my day. Pykett Won. I'm happy. And looking forward to Monday when i get my chocolates :D wheee~ I wonder what is she doing in Singapore? Sure miss me eh la XD hahahahaha And i have to prepare for kena marah from her on Monday. She will said "hah, dare to jump somemore la. next time you do this again, i don't want to talk to you! See~ Pain bo? How is it?". AHAHAHA 5 second of scolding. Forever of caring. XD

LOADS TO CRAP

2010-07-07T13:05:00.001+08:00

First of all. I'm here to wish Lenna a HAPPY BIRTHDAY via BLOG version~ ^^ Anyway, i'm waiting for you to do ADD MATHS! Hahaha you should know why! So now, keep doing perdagangan. I'll wait for Add Maths turn xD And you're the one with the kit-kat. == ish nia! Btw, thanks for your Morning Call. I'm not like panda! :P

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~Second Case~
I DON'T KNOW WHAT SHOULD I DO!! ARGHHH!!!! HOW TO EXPRESS? HOW TO TELL? HOW TO TALK??? RAWR!!! *i'm mentioning about Ewei. See~ i admit*

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~Third Case~
Can i not go hiking? I'm alone! No Form 2 is going~ AHHHH!!!! HOW?

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~Last One~
CAN I GO OUT FROM THE HOUSE? I NEED FRESH AIR!! NOT THUNDER!! I'M SCARED OF IT!! DON'T MAKE ME HIDE UNDER MY BRANKET!! And i can't wait for Eclipse~ xD Faster! faster! Teehee~
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My Brain Is Working When My Heart Is Breaking

2010-07-05T19:41:00.000+08:00

There's alot type of friends in this world.
Some are passertive and some are good.
To me, i believe that i only have a few good friends.
Not to hide, but show.
I dare to admit whoose my good friends.
Jolene is one of my good friend. She will always listen to me and be with me through thick or thin.
Lean Na and Yean Shinq too. They will always be there for me. I knew that! :)
Let me admit the other side.
Ewei, Ewing and Winnie are always my good friends.
But people change.
They now treat me like nothing.
So how am i gonna treat them like i used to?
Just face the fact! Age is not a problem when you believe and appreciate one another.

True friends is hard to find.
I always agree.
But even you found them,
They will still leave you one day.
They won't treat you liek how they did previously because...
people change. :)
But i bet they don't know.
Even you're changing towards me, I will still accept it because,
people may fade but memories will maintain.

You will be the most shining star in the night sky
You look after me and cared for me and
You will always be there by my side.
But what will happen if you leave me like a shooting star?

When you decide to leave me,
Can you please don't turn and smile at me?
Because your perfect smile is making me worse by not letting go of you.
I may cry alit without you, i may miss you more than i usually do.
But do remember, nomatter how far you're going to leave me,
Your name will always be there in my heart.
Don't forget i love you, and i need you
I'll always be with you.

I don't think, I feel.
But when i feel,
I got hurt deeply.
But when i think,
I got emotional problem.
So let's try not to think or feel.
Just see with eyes.

Good friends are found in every corney of the world.
But how sad?
Earth is round.

People tend to treat me like nothing..
Especially close one.
The one i know the longest.
Run through life with me, stay with me nomatter what have leave.
Because world had turn.
People had change.
They found new ones, and forget old ones.
When you talk, they hear nothing.
When you ask, then answer nothing.
When you leave, they feel nothing.
Nomatter how good you treated them, they never know.

I tend to believe that good friends will stay with me.
But i'm just stupid.
Because whenever you're having a trouble,
They will eventualyl leave you without a word.

If you change,
I'll accept and continue my
LIFE AFTER YOU :D

THERE'S NO POINT TO CRY OVER A FRIEND WHO TREATED YOU BADLY. THEY ARE NOT WORTH FOR YOUR TEARS. JUST KEEP THE TEARS FOR SOMEONE WHO TREAT YOU GOOD. =D

HELP!

2010-07-03T17:20:00.000+08:00

I really really rally really really really really NEED HELP ON RATIO (MATHS)
I really don't understand what the hell is it about. I think until my head gonna burst dy! BLAH!! HMPH!

Don't know what,
If x : y : z = 3 : 7 : 5 and y - z = 8
Then x : y : z = 3 : 7 : 5 , y - z = 8
p : q : r = 8 : 24 : 36 in lowest term
x : y : z = 1 : 2 : 5 and z-y = 18

WHAT IS THIS??? AIYOYO! MY EYES POPPING OT DY KAY! XD

SIGH

2010-07-02T17:25:00.000+08:00

Haih, Cha Bo. Don't think too much la. There's nothing will happen to you. And IT WON'T! It just a bad dream that keep on replay every night in my dream. It's not like i purposely want to dream about it. I can't control right? Maybe it's reminding me that you're leaving school really soon. Or maybe you're going UK or Austrilia. So, don't remind yourself of you will die or what! CHOI! CHOI! CHOI! *TOUCH WOOD* Maybe we can't decide the future. But as we know, time is gold. And please, don't go do something stupid kay! I know your house is nearby the sea. But ka tolong, don't ever ever ever think of JUMPING INTO IT! *angry* You don't make me crazy by getting news that you're gone or something like that once i wake up! I may not say a word but i can quaranteen that, i will just faint or run away to cry. And not a few minutes seeing tears rolling off. It may be forever or it may be everyday! I'm sensitive. I know myself well in this. I'm begging you not to post some status that make me scared. What if i'm the one who will appear in your dream tonight and i'm the one dying? xD would you wake up and cry like i did? Lol. Just chill. I still need you, and of course MATHS!! =)

STRESS OUT!

2010-06-29T16:59:00.000+08:00

(SHINQ); Lol, i shouldn't have let myself DOWN just now. Ish~ Regret! Why don't i just stand up? Btw, this post is especially for Shinq. I think back and feel so pity that she was so blur just now. She did not know what is happening to me at all~ :D well, well, well. I should tell you in details. XD There's nothing to do with you! What you have to do is BE PATIENT WITH MY MATHS! I promise you that i won't lost concentration next time. Never ever ever do it again. I'm sorry~ My mind keep on think of other things just now. Hehe. You know la? Exam is so near. Which is next week! O.o I'm still un-prepare. For example, something will block when i'm about to study~ Let's see whoose the one Potong Steam? ^^

-History Folio (I haven't touch it yet)
-Sivik Folio (The deadline is this Friday)
-LK Presentation (Must be presented after exam)
-Homeworks (Alot. It's like a mountain. Must hand in tomorrow? Perhaps.)
-Assignment (Account? Science?)
-Art ( This must be done by every Thursday!)
-Paper work (Never ending)

Based on that, it has block all my time. For example, the deadline is so near of bla bla bla. So, i really got no choices on what to do. Where to start and when to end? Maybe they have told you just now that i cried because of Wan Chen quiting PRS? Hahaha. Don't be silly like them. There's nothing to do with her. I won't care if she's going to quit or not. It's her choice, it's her life. :) I can do nothing about it but support her. Or maybe you guys will think about Lenna? Hahahaha. There's nothing to do with her too~ So, everytime when i'm sad or what doesn't mean i'm sad for the same thing repeatly. It may change. Who knows? =)

And sorry because i scared you just now. I just know that when i cry, it makes you stress looking at me! Sorry ya~ :D hehe. Same goes to that day la. I called you up at 10 ++ and cried on the phone which make you panik like hell. XD Lol.

So now, just leave it to me! I bet after exam, i will be okay! And sorry that i throw my stuff and you have to pick them up just now! Because whenever i cried, there's no one ever force me to put my head up like you did! What they did is hug me or talk to me softly. So, i will just block by throwing things :D Hehehe. Paisheh! XD

THIS IS CHIA YING AND YOU HAVE TO KNOW ABOUT IT! I'M YOUR FRIEND AND YOU HAVE TO ACCEPT IT! XD WILL HAND IN MATHS TO YOU ON FRIDAY! WAKA WAKA! XD =)
*i don't care, after you read, you have to smile. =)*

I don't know

2010-06-18T12:38:00.000+08:00

Life aren't easy, there may be alot or difficults in my life but i just have to live with it! When did wrong things, then say sorry. When being blame, say sorry! Life can be fair or unfair. Is just how the way you live it! When you fall down, stand up ler. You think what? There's someone there to pick you up? Haha. Don't be silly girl, it's hard to have someone who be by your side always. Maybe there is, but people can change. They won't always stay with you.

To Let Go..Is not to try to change or blame another,
I can only change myself.
Is not to care for,
but to care about.

To Let Go..Is not to deny, but to accept.
Is not to nag, scold, or argue,
but to search out my own shortcomings
and to correct them.

To Let Go..Is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.
Is to fear less and to love more.

I am no where near perfect. I EAT when i'm bored. I FALL for boys easily. I'm vunerable to believing lies. I'm hoping that one day i won't need to fake smile. I live by quotes that explain exactly what i am going through. I have best friends and enemies. I have moments and memories. And that's life. Live it, Love it, Learn from it.
Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place? like somehow you just don't belong, and no one understand you. Isn't it sad? Because right answer don't always come in the same envelope as the right answer.

When you're not around (random post)

2010-06-18T10:16:00.000+08:00

I feels lonely but do you cared?

I say i miss you, but do you?

So nomatter what you feels or think, i'll still miss you.

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And even if you does not love me, i'll still love you!

WHY AM I STILL AT HOME?

2010-06-07T11:16:00.000+08:00

Why am i here? Why am i still online? Aren't i'm suppose to be in Gurney with Lenna? Why am i here? BECAUSE THE PLAN FAIL!!!!! *SOB* *SOB* *SOB* *SOB* *SOB* ='( She just text me.. WE WANT TO GO OUT!!!!

A Lunch =)

2010-06-04T17:31:00.000+08:00

Today MGS we're celebrating the Teacher's Day. We went up to the hall in the morning and the events went like this. Firstly, we have the teachers walk in from the back door with a prefects or monitor and assistance monitor. All the teacher will be one of the celebrities in Hollywood. XD There will be a prefect's, monitor or assistance monitor walking in to the hall with the teacher. They are wearing like a body guard. The BOP EXCO's is wearing a black coat, a greeny tie, a bluetooth on the shirt and black sunglasses. That;s really yeng. XD After that, we have the performs from alot of classes and then it end with a slide show by PRS. =)
After everything finish, we were about to went back to class and stay by the courgdrangle to support for the teacher's who is having telematch, captain ball and stuff. But end up i was accompanying Ewei to go office to called her sister for fetching her home. Aiya, something happen to her la XD So, i went back to class after that and it's really HOT! Extremly HOT! We were about to have class party with teacher's after that. But sadly, my class brought nothing so what we ate is sweets. == so we went out to find for FOOD! *hungry* Before we went, Siew Yen came and find me with Marina. She was asking me how's her dance and did i saw her dancing? So end up there both were watching their dancing video which i've taken. XD They really happy to see that i've that the video and keep on thanked me. Haiz. Then later on we went patroling the school for FOOD! Hehe.
Skipped some part. Lazy to type. XD Then Wan Chen came and find me and we went for a half an hour walk around the school to share our feelings and thoughs. =) After that, i went back to my class and found out that i still have half an hour before school ends. Wth? So, i decided to take a nap and sleep in class since i didn't really sleep last night. Everytime when i'm enjoying my sleep, there would be potong steam cases happened. Like just now, there's someone who named Carina and Czen Shing wanted to make the ballon explode and end up, i terkejut and they annoyed me. The other one is, Ewing came and asked me about NIE poems when i'm sleeping. Then same goes to Aina who came and poke me until i wake up! ISH right? Haiz. POTONG STEAM!
Then i continue my sleep and i notice that it's already 12.45! Which mean school ends. I jump up straightly and comb my hair properly. Then the bell rang on time when i finished packing my stuff. I took my bag and i ran out to 5P to find the Lau Ee. When she cames out, both of us went to the Prefect's Room to putted or belongings. Course we were scared to dead to put our belongings in the canteen. Got too much enermies dy. XD Lol. And then i merajuk to go toilet and she wanted to go too~ == SWT! And we met Amanda on the way and i'm still nagging that "I WANT TO GO TOILET". So, Amanda said, go la that side. Aiyo! Then we went toilet. When we came out, we met Farah and Radziah. They wanted to cari "gaduh",when i don't have the mood to do so. What i want is to SLEEP! *i look like a panda* Then we went outside and went up the car with a feeling of DYING! We keep on asked each other you buy insurance aboi? Haiz. Then when we went in, she asked us to put on sit belt and bla bla bla. Both of us sitted to the corner, (which means my side)because we we're scared that we might masuk hospital. So we went with a really serious face and when we went sleepy and wanted to sleep. When we reach New World Park, I told Amanda that i feel dizzy. Same goes to Lenna. She complaine that too~ Then Amanda say SUAK LOR. XD By the time, me and Lenna already exchange our name tag. But no one notice that. Even Chia Wen and Shu Yong also did not see the difference. Lol. XD we laugh a lot of time because of that. Hahaha.
When we went in to the food court, both of us was like dot dot dot. We don't know what to eat nor what to buy. So the three of them went to buy their food and left me and Lenna sitting down wondering. We decided to shared our lunch but we can't see the shop name. So, i took out my specs to see and lenna lend my specs. She can see clearly with my specs. XD so end up we went to order Tepanyaki Chicken which cost us 8 bucks. When Amanda they all came back. She asked us why aren't we eating? We told her we've order and she's still not believe. Haiz. Then we ordered our drinks and we shared Pepsi again~ Amanda asked Lenna why aren't she drinking and she said WE SHARED! XD then the whole lunch, both of us is sharing. When we eat the rice, we're actually fighting! We push the rice to here and there and exchange the chopsticks and the spoon non-stop! == then end up i win. Wheeee~ Then pepsi also we fight! == hahaha Then later, me and Lenna merajuk course we wanna sit on the children's playground punya thingy! SWT right? But it's only for children who is 3-9 nia. Haih, we're OLD! After both of us finish our lunch, we went to Nice Day for a short shopping and some small stores over the end. I bought a picture holder which lenna choose it for me. It's nice =) Then i wanted to eat the cute muffins but end up i kena pulled away from the store by the siao lau ee. Haiz.
Then when we're about to go back from there, Shu Yong stepped on some bubble gum and she start to get it off by sticking it back to the floor. All of us laugh at her. XD It's funny. Then we went to KFC to play at the playground. Both of us enjoy the swings while teh two of them went inside to chit-chat. Lenna teach me the skill for swings on how to move forward and backwards. == SWT! I saw my watch and it's already like 2.45. So, i asked them to go back dy! So we went back to school and get our stuff. When we reach school, me and Lenna pakat to run out from the car and leave the present behind once we reach. So we really ran out from the car. Hahaha. We went 5P for a short break and taking pictures. =) When it's time to go back, i ate one of those Shinq's creampuff which she gave to Lenna. Yummy~ =D haha.
I really enjoyed today alot! I've alot of fun and i hope my life would be like this everyday =) Thanks to Amanda, Lenna, Shu Yong, and Fong Chia Wen =)

I want

2010-06-01T17:21:00.000+08:00

HEHE. Bored but got many stupid ideas. So, i think of THIS! I want it, can someone sponser for me? ^^ Lol. :D

Lalalalalalala Old memories.

2010-05-31T19:15:00.000+08:00

If by the time when i was in Form 4 or 5, and i look at this post.. i will be laughing even harder than NOW. XD Seriously, it's funny.

CY : YEAN SHINQ AR!!! YOU KNOW THAT I KNOW THAT SHE KNOW THAT I DON'T KNOW BO?

YS : oh. I don't know that she know and You don't know. So I don't even know then you should know.

CY : omg! Nice wey. Btw, i know that she know but i don't know. you don't know and i don't know but she know. COOL!

YS : Oh. I don't know that you don't know. So I think she know but she don't think that you know. So You know.

CY : so i know that i don't know. i don't know what i should know. she know what that i don't know? you know? can let me know?

YS : it is said that you know . But now you are acting like you don't know. But you already know. Than he is here to say I KNOW YOU LOVE ME! XD

CY : I tough we're talking about SHE? Now to HE? You pandai ar? XD

YS : Sure lah. I was thinking about it. Than I think the she is so luan. then mah write he lor.

CY : use HE to shut me up la? Now you catch my weak place dy la.. SHE is always complicated!

YS :duh. I'm so smart. *self praise*

LOOK! It's FUNNY RIGHT? I tell you hah, even though it's kinda hin, but it's COOL. I hope i can talk like this everyday :P If Shinq sees this, she will be saying.. LOL. CHIA YING ar~ XD XD XD

AUNTY SCARED ME OUT OF IT

2010-05-30T00:50:00.000+08:00

First of all, she will kena from me really teruk this coming Friday. She scared me out of my sleepyness. Now, i'm wide awake and scared of going to bed. Let me share the convo out. We started chatting and suddenly she go even HIGH. So, i decide to ask her ::

Me : You high is it?

Amanda : Yea. High on drugs. Haha

Me : Hoh hoh. Ex mgs-ian ki siao. Luan luan teach gina dy! Chi cham liao. What you did?

Amanda : I swam across to butterworth and crawl back to penang.

Me : LENNA, LOOK AT YOUR SENIOR. SHE GONE CRAZY DY!

Amanda : Lenna is not here.

Me : I know. I'm shouting for her.

Amanda : Well face the fact kid. She's not here. And i can kill u now. N there's nothing she can do about it.

Me : AHHHHHHHH You insult me, You derah me.

Amanda : I dun derah u. All i want is ur darah. U believe in abnormal ppl?

Me : Believe. *scared*

Amanda : U believe if i tell u i am normal but i dun behave normal?

Me : BELIEVE!! *scared* What happen to you? You siao is it? Talk all crap mia.

Amanda : WHO ARE YOU?

Me : Chia Ying la. Weyyy, don't scared me la. What happen?

Amanda : My friend is the one who heck into my acc la. Then type type type ma like that lor.

Me : You kena dy.

Amanda : Kena what?

Me : Kena WALLAP!

Amanda : wall la..haha.. i build a wall for you.

Me : *end up fainting*

You see~ What kind of aunty is this? Ish~

Nothing To Do =)

2010-05-25T18:43:00.000+08:00

Hello~ *waves* BORED!! So i decide to post nonsense. Today, my prey is SHINQ! Nyehehe. XD

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Teehee~ I LOVE YOU MY FRIEND! XD

I Just Don't Get It

2010-05-25T14:57:00.000+08:00

I don't get it why am i the one who always take a steps backwards and let it to others? Why can't i just be brave and stand up for myself? Why must i run away? But no one can blame it on me course I JUST LOVES MY FRIEND. This is why i doesn't want to fight with them. But why i'm the one who go cared for how they feel but not them who care for me? Everytime when it cames to scolding, i will always be the one keeping quiet. And the rest scolding. After that, i still treat you as my friend. Can it be a time i scold you and you're still my friend? I don't think so. If i ever scold you once, i will be straight DEAD. This is why i called it UNFAIR. What to do when i'm angry? I only can take my chair and go sit with other peoples and copy my nilam. You guys? Will you guys think about how i feel? Why you guys care about what i'm thinking? NO right?!? But ME, Chia Ying. I will think about everything and find way to solve. I doesn't want to fight with all of you. Btw, i'm not your maid. I'm not your part time friend who let you talk to when you're bored. I treat you the best and you treat me like this? Think it over. You should know who you are except you've being thick-skinned. Now, i will be a little straight forward here. YOU! Pass the NIE to me and after i forget to bring, I GOTTA DO THE WHOLE THING BY MYSELF? By the time you forget to bring, did you do the whole thing by yourself? If you really pass it to me and i got to finish up by my own, i will definelty THROW IT INTO THE RUBBISH BIN. =) easy right? Always telling myself to chill and tahan. Always tak sampai hati wanted to scold you all who is my friend. Love you guys to the fullest and now, you gus treat me like nothing. Don't think i'm the tree la. I will explode de kay. Even i did not explode infront of all of you to prevent Walz happen, i will still explode through words. It's my own choice to choose on which way i wanted to express. There's nothing to do with you all who always treated me like this. And yes, i'm still in the moment of anger since just now. Don't asked why i treated the Form 5's better than you guys. Don't said that i pilih kasih and doesn't love you like i did to them. This is because what i've did never being appreciate by YOU PEOPLE. If you people could be like the Form 5's who appreciate me as their friend, I WILL LOVE YOU EVEN MORE. Too bad, you guys don't know. Think over on what you're did to me. And i'm here to say Sorry! Sorry if i ever make some mistake. That's all.

Know or Don't Know?

2010-05-24T19:05:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, i just wonder why you get angry because of that? I know it's long dy but because i view back last times post, i think back. I wonder what is the point for being that? Maybe you guys got other stuff but to me, i just think of DON'T LUAN. But i saw something that is so true. teehee~ I won't tell. You won't know. Keep it to yourself and i'll keep it to myself. =) There's aways something you don't want to let me know and i does that too.. but always remember that it's a good thing. I know things that you don't know too~ Haha. It's always like that.

BORED!

2010-05-20T15:09:00.000+08:00

I have been waiting since 2++. It's now 3++. I've waited for an hour. I'm so dead here! Want to sleep also cannot..want to do other thing also cannot. If i know i would be like this earlier, i should had stay back for Orchestra. Ish nia. == Now, i decide to keep typing until my phone vibrates. This to keep me awake. I keep on go down,down and down. Really tired but can't sleep. Scared later my phone vibrate that time i cannot hear. This is what called cari pasal. I should had say the time and i call. Why i call that person to text me when she's done. =X oh god. i'm dead. It's super chi ma kan okay. My plurk keep on sounds *teng teng teng* but all sort of nonsense came out from my friend eh. Somemore ewei is not online now. I actually just finish spamming her wall nia. I think she might gona crazy later. Opss, never mind la. used to it dy. Awww, REGRET!! Now, i'm growing mushroom and waiting for someone to harvest it. I'm calling but everyone is ofline. I guess they are still in school. I can imagine that Charmaine is curi makan in class, Winnie is at the clarinet class with her Jolene and Shannen along with Ewing. I can imagine the viola class is almost blank because Stephanie and Ewei did not go and they are all lengang here and there course Miss Tan is out with the seniors for lunch. Well, is a seniors farewell party. At home now, i was calling EWEI!! EWING!! MAINY!! WINNIE!! SHINQ!! Where are you guys? Come online and chat with me!! I'm bored and dead. I know the feeling of waiting is not nice dy. I won't dare to ask people text me AFTER they done next time. It's scary. I waited till my mother also i can't recognize anymore. Lol. An eassay is out from me dy still my phone didn't vibrate. I started to think negativly liao. I think that she might not call and i'm gone~ Now, i feel guilty. Awwwww ='( Pek chek ugh.. My mum is out with my gramdma and the home is seriously quiet. My cousin sister is doing her own stuff and i don't know what it is. IMMA BORED! Haiz Haiz Haiz. O_o Aiya, i think i go watch tv while waiting la. Pek Chek nia. Later if she did call, sure kena from me one. But if she did not, means i kena from her dy. Oh or maybe she's having green club? HAHA I don't know wor. Why i bo ask? STUPIAK! See la~ How also must wait till 4++ dy. Today got green club ar? HAHAHAHA STUPID! Okay okay, i should go dy. My eyes hurts loads. =)

You asked, I'll answer. =)

2010-05-14T14:08:00.000+08:00

I just go to pass a score and turn out i kena shoot. This is the first time people talk to me like this and i hope it's the last one. You asked me, "Why you come here only find Shinq, Lenna, Aishah and Radz"? Why only them? It's so obvious. Let me ask you, Can you teach me the things i don't know? Do you care for me? Do you bother where i'm living or dying? NO right? =) This is because, only the four of them would appreciate me as their friend. I respect them, and they did too. They would care to teach me the things i don't know. You said, "i only see you, a junior come to my class and find them." This is because i need them. I won't fight or scold you guys. You can see it this morning. You shooted me until like this i also keep myself quiet. If i doesn't care to respect you, I've just shouted back. =) So yea, you hurts my feeling. Stop shooting me in this way. I just know that it feels scary. And sorry if i sitted your chair this morning. I'm not the one who pick to sit at your chair. Okay, i think i've finish answering all your question. Thank You!

Yawn

2010-05-07T23:53:00.000+08:00

It's 12++ now and i still can't sleep although i'm really tired and sleepy. I've to write this out because i found out that there's no one be there for me. Is either they are moodless or angry with stuff. Nomally there's people ready for me one. But is just that i can't make things right that's why that person leave me alone. And now, i totally can't do anything but staring at the computer. I can't study now because i really can't concentrate on this time. (Just back from tuition) Full of question in my mind. Mathematics (the most), Science (the second), Problems (almost covered everything). I'm squeezing brain juice to think about it now but it doesn't taste good. == Exam is coming next week, i wish i could not touch the computer but it's hard. I can meh? I can't! Sometimes i just don't know why i can't think positivly. Is always at the negative side. I've to pull to the correct side. It's heavy okay!! Now, i gotta go off dy. Nights.

Who is this?

2010-05-05T16:01:00.000+08:00

A girl who i cannot live without. If without this person, i will lose control and i don't know what i suppose to do. Especially when she's absent for school. I will became crumsy. XD I'm scared to see her emo and even scared to see her HYPER! Sorry i've to say this. She just can't control herself when she's hyper. She might just turn up to me and whack me. O.o Scary right?! XD She's a POOH LOVER. ♥ She got a calculator in her brain that's why she can do maths that fast. XD

Why i need help?

2010-05-03T18:30:00.000+08:00

THIS IS WHY I ASKED FOR SWEETS BECAUSE I'VE FINISH THE WHOLE BOX OF CHOCOLATES AND WHOLE PACKETS OF SWEETS JUST NOW. Shinq, It's okay. Don't have to paksa go buy dy.

Can't you see?

2010-05-03T17:52:00.000+08:00

CAN'T YOU SEE THAT I'M HEART BROKEN?!? DON'T TEASE ME ANYMORE! I'M NOT THAT STRONG! I JUST KNOW HOW TO EXPRESS IT IN A WAY OF CRYING KAY!

NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WHEN SUDDEN CHANGE

2010-05-03T16:49:00.000+08:00

People do have nood swings, I HAVE TOO~ *feel so proud, haha* =) What to do? Hehe. But i may be fine when a correct person sit down and talk to me. I just need to understand. Mood swings memang pun dibencikan. XD But i've less mood-less nowadays because i understand something i don't used to know. =)

But i'm wondering what happen to the peoples around me? They turn quiet and having a deep emotional problem. (YOU SHOULD KNOW WHO YOU ARE, TO THE PERSON WHO READING THIS WILL KNOW WHOOSE THE PERSON I'M MENTIONING) =)

Do you have to be so cold to me? Have you knock your head on something or do you really changed? The one i used to know is not like this de kay? You know it's hurts to see a person who is always be yourside turn into a person who is fading away from you? Seriously, it's hurts.

And please, I can be sad sometimes. I'm not a perfect person who can SMILE everyday. But do remember, I can be fine ASAP! Give me sometime to CHILL and i'll RECOVER.

Oh

2010-04-28T18:06:00.000+08:00

This morning. A Panda waves at me. I waved back. I think again. Why is it A PANDA waving at me? I go blank!! The Panda doesn't smile at all. I wonder is it that hard.

Nowadays, i always cannot control myself nomatter what. I over-laugh way too much and i always end up day dreaming. Maybe there's no one to guide me. I being left out.

I know how others feel when im sad, emo and cry. It's not a GOOD feeling. Ewei go to school with a-non-ewei-face everyday and she always end up emo-ing or crying. Her face is even blacker than the black board. I really worry that she might just explode beside me one day. I really got no idea on what to do when you cried.

Jolene; we're fading apart. I know what will happen. We even got no topic to talk but joke all around when we met. But even though we're miles apart, but we're each other density. =)

Ewing, ask you to go talk to that person you don't want. Be brave ler. There's chances for you. Think of it. Don't depends on us kay. We already did our best.

YOU! Don't tell me you're okay. You're NOT! What happen? You won't tell me. I don't know what to do. I've tried all the way but it fails. Haiz. I really can't do anything dy. ='(

But my dear friends, tough YOU ALL are the one who called me not to be sad and stay happy? Why do you guys EMO-ING?!? Just relax la.. I JUST WANT YOU ALL TO STAY HAPPY KAY. THINK POSITIVE, NOT NEGATIVE. *HUGS*

Ewing, we're in the same shoe. XD

2010-04-27T17:32:00.000+08:00

你怎么会这么冷静。无声的爱是不是所有的乐趣。我觉得自己很蠢爱你在沉默。你来我家那又怎样？你从来没有跟我，除非我先开始对话。你认为它很容易找到适合的东西和你谈谈？我是一个女孩，你是一个男孩，你不是应该是一个谁第一个开始交谈？我厌倦了颐。我不喜欢我的朋友谁得到时间按照自己的爱人和爱他们默默地。我只是不知道为什么我才知道你在我的生活。你毁了它。但我可以生活在没有你。我有我的朋友。我能找到一个更好的谁爱我比你没有。这是结束。我不会跟你说话了。我自己的信息，你不会看到这一点。我已经把自己安静。

PS: no one can read what i write..hahaha. Use translation also cannot course what it comes out is totally different on what i write. XD Shiok nia~

Just for ewei~ XD

2010-04-20T18:08:00.000+08:00

당신이 모든 단어와 함께 나를 힌 만들어 같은 이유?

why you like to make me hin with all this words?

당신은 정말 좋은 것 같아, 그렇지?

You think very nice is it?

그건 그렇고, 난 널 사랑해 내 사랑스런 딸

by the way, i love you my lovely daughter

당신을 사랑합니다

I LOVE YOU

Something easy can be turn out complicated

2010-04-14T15:11:00.000+08:00

I just wonder what i want. There's both solution in my mind. I just don't know how to choose because i worried that what i'm going to choose might bring bad to me. I wonder why a person can let go a thing soo easily and yet not regret.. Can anyone tell me why? If for me, i sure won't de. I may just forgive and forget. Let me type out the steps how i think from the start.

Okay, the first thing i think is.. go to that person and apologize after a week. If i take the first steps, it will be fine. She's soft-hearted. =)
Then someone told me must go and talk ASAP if not the problem will go worse. O_o Then i think of going last Tuesday. But i did not made it course she deleated me in facebook and MSN. Plus, she look scary in school.
So, i think of letting it go. I think of that she will talk back to me when she realize that how much i said Sorry to her. I somemore think that let go will help me to stay happy.
What the?!? I'm actually wrong. I tried a day off fooling around without thinking of the problems and even that person but once i sit down quietly, the thing again appear in my mind. So, i tried to make my friend hyper so that she will make me laugh even more back! I done it sucuessfully within a few minute. I know i'm fast. So i go laughing on all those sort of stuff either it's funny or not. People taugh i'm having fun but i'm not. I just want to express my feeling in a way of laughing but not crying.
And yes, it helps to distract me from the problems everytime i focus on the thing i'm laughing. But i wonder why i have friends with such a clever mind. She came to me and said. "ChiaYing ar, is it worth using laughter to cover your sadness? Are you feeling better if you keep on fooling around like this"? So i replied her patiently. I said, as long as it can distract me at least 1% from the problem, i will do it. I doesn't want to cry.I'm tired! =)
Yesterday..i think of something. I've been so scared to fall asleep course i worry that i may not wake up tomorrow and face the fact. i tough she will at least feel better so that i can talk to her easily dy but it seems like she go even worse. She actually never accept my friends request for a long time since the day she started to ignore me. But now, she had CLICK the IGNORE button. So i was asking myself..should i add back or not. I decide not..in case she go even worse.
Then i think again~Did she know that i really wants her to forgive me and i promise not to make the same mistake again? I WISH TO SAY A MILLION TIMES OF SORRY!! Can she hear me? Even if i cry a thousand tears tonight, would she come back to me?!?
I don't know why a seconds i think of letting go but the other seconds i think of getting back. This is my own choices. No one can help me unless that person see this and think twice. Things might be better and might be worse. This choices is MINE.
Someone asked me this question yesterday..is she important to you? do you really love her? what if she will not be the old _____ again. will you still love her? think... But my answer is, i don't know! But what i know is, she's important to me!! If she is not the one i used to know, i'm gonna be so dissapointed! I never think of a person might changed that much~
And now, SOMETHING EASY CAN BE TURN OUT COMPLICATED. I still don't know what should i do but i know what i want. :D

What i want is to get back this friend i have and i will make a change. I'M SORRY ON WHAT I'VE DID!! REALLY SORRY! :(

Something you don't know and you won't know;

2010-04-03T21:22:00.000+08:00

Let me guess,

YOU think i'm happy, But i'm not.
YOU think i'm strong enough, But i'm not.
YOU think i can live without YOU, But i can't.
YOU think i purposely wanna make YOU angry, But i'm not.

I think i should stop here course nomatter how much i write, YOU won't bother. Why wanna make myself suffer in this. Doesn't YOU know that time flies?!? I just wonder when YOU can actually tell me how YOU feel and thinks towards me!! If i know YOU will die tomorrow, i'll hug YOU tight with me and never let go~ YOU doesn't know how much i appreciate YOU...

Outing In Gurney :D

2010-03-16T10:51:00.000+08:00

So, this outing is held on the very last minute. We go there without planning. Actually i'm going with Ewei only. The other gang go to watch Alice In The Wonderland..We once fight before the movie start and Ewei's ON FIRE!! Haha. But when we about to go back, Charmaine ran out and give us sweet~ She look like our mother running out. HAHAHAHAHAHA So, we got time to take the last picture together before we both went back. =)

Mummy!! xD

Ginger Bread Man!! Cute nia~

Lol :) ewei's hand!! haha

Cannot see leh?!? Try to figure out la. :D

hahahahahaha

Sukan Saringan

2010-03-12T23:28:00.000+08:00

Actually i'm quite blur on what's happening. Fyi, i'm really tired on that time. HAHAHA. I don't think so that what i want to mention will make things better so, i don't want to mention about it anymore. =) I just want to tell Pykett members something. That is... win or lose is not a big deal. As long as we already try our very best for it. And always remember, we are the winner for the rest as long as we had try our best. I know it's hard to do the thing that i mentioned course i tried it before. HAHAHAHA. As for someone who feel dissapointed because the group doesn't want to cooperate, CHEER UP! I know you had already try your very best! The way i cheer for you aren't wasted! As long as i saw what effort you had put in it. =) Anyway, i've sprained my right leg after the game. Now, my leg hurts much!! Pray for it to recover soon before school holidays end..

(12 March 2010)

Just for Jolene~~ Ylene, cheer up kay! I don't know what happen to you but just be happy!! I'm sure everything will goes fine soon. There's no problems that cannot be settle in our life. =)

People, I LOVE YOU!!!

Ewei

Jolene

WanChen

Winnie

Carina

CzenShing

Sammie

Shinq

Lenna

Life In SDO

2010-03-08T18:31:00.000+08:00

This is called as life is SDO. Living in SDO world is so much better compare to our daily life. In that world, you just have to dance all the time with different music and meet different people. Compare to our life, it's so much different. We have to goes through stuff, study hard, learn mistakes and how to enjoy life to the fullest. SDO life juga mesti go through hard moments. That is, battle with peoples and getting high level. Hmmm~ Tak senang tahu.. XD But so sad to say that i'm already in Form 2. I've PMR next year.. I need time to revise and study last year things and catch up this year's. Form2 life aren't easy. All the subjects go even harder dy. Maths is making us pek chek!! I got less time to sit down and SDO dy.. I wonder how my level will up??? Btw, SDO-ing is really fun! It helps to make me happy when i'm stress out and help to make me feel FUN! :D

This Video is recorded by SDO when i saved it. The first time i played this song is totally different. I practise and practise till i can get full Combo! XD hahahahaha

How ar? I don't know wor..

2010-02-24T16:06:00.000+08:00

*SIGH* Haih~ Everyone should know that cry make peoples feel better right? But sad case is, i've run out of tears. How to cry?? *last time finish using it, that's why*. Why i always did wrong things de? But i don't know what i've did. == Wait! I should ask, why i always got problem de? Life memang unfair la. I NEED CONFORT!!!

No more words, no more lies,

Let it goes before it dies,

Hear the words, hear the pain.

The last of friendship ends in vain.

Sweet in start, bitter in end,

heart will break NEVER BEND.

There are things that we don't want it to happen, but have to accept it. Things we don't want to know, but have to learn. And people we can't live without, but have to let go. So this is my life. And i want you to know that i am both happy and sad and i'm still trying to figure out how could this be. T.T

So true~~ :(
*Ahem* This is not me for sure and i won't be like that. I just somehow love the picture.
But obviously the girl inside got abit Siao. ==

KNOW WHAT??? I'M REALLY SAD!!

♥♥♥

2010-02-23T15:31:00.000+08:00

I received this BIG GIFT from Shinq and Ylene yesterday. =) Know what? I first time receive this type of BIG present. And i'm seriously really HAPPY! Although the person sitting next to me is jealous, I DON'T CARE~~ As long as i'm happy. :D teehee~ The present is REALLY EXPENSIVE. Course i already "admired" the bear very long time ler. *mother don't let me buy* BUT I SWEAR THAT NO ONE KNOW I WANT IT~~ THEY BOUGHT IT THEMSELVE!
And now, they spend so much money on it to make me HAPPY! (Shinq said it herself). AWWWWW!! I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!!! ♥♥♥ :D

:D :D :D :D :D HUGS :D :D :D :D :D

2010-02-19T00:15:00.000+08:00

DON'T TELL ME YOU GOT NO CREDIT..DON'T TELL ME YOU FORGET..DON'T TELL ME YOU'RE BUSY..JUST TELL ME YOU HATE ME! That's all...STRAIGHT AND EASY.

Speechless

2010-02-16T00:16:00.000+08:00

Aiyo, my head spin right round la. I'm going off to bed dy manatahu things goes like this! Why suddenly you don't want to talk and feeling so moody?? Just now still ki-high one!! What happen actually? Tell me la!! It makes me cannot sleep nia. Haiz~ T.T

:D

2010-02-15T22:18:00.000+08:00

New shoe! New shoe! New shoe! New shoe! New shoe! New shoe! New shoe! :DDDD

CUTE ANOT?!? I mean my puppy!! Haha. know what??? I snatch food with her. She stare at me and i'm still eating! HAHAHAHAHA *evil laugh* XD

PS: Thanks Shinq for everything! *hugs*

Marching

2010-02-12T17:10:00.000+08:00

How could i take it when i don't know that i'm actually march wrong since last year?!? Imagine that all those Form 1's march properly than you did! How sad? I DON'T KNOW HOW TO KIRI BELOK!!! Argh! I wanna quit marching but my comander said i siao! I just don't want to ruin the whole skuad.

Sake Of PRS Slide Show

2010-02-08T19:14:00.000+08:00

PS: Pat, save this photo!!

STRESS

2010-02-06T17:55:00.000+08:00

One word to discribe my feeling. I'm totally stress out! Easy and simple. This are the following why i'm stress.

Mountain of Homeworks
YE Products
Exam is coming soon
Problems everywhere.
Tuition!
Piano Class

This six things already make me stress, how about others?? I don't feel like mentioning anymore. I'm really really sick and tired. Tough can share with someone but it end up NOTHING!

I'M GOOD IN NOTHING.

2010-02-02T19:05:00.000+08:00

YESSSSS. I'm GOOD in nothing! Let me tell you why i say so~

I'm making people fed up without knowing.
I'M SUCKS!
I don't know what should i do?
I don't know what should i say?
I don't know what i should do to make things better.
I'm BLANK!!
I make people stress.
I'm not suitable to be PRS and forever not! Cause i'm useless.
I got no way to go except for DIE.

See, i told you that i'm good in nothing! I'm not worth to live anymore. Just let me die!! T.T

What Should I Do?? T.T

2010-02-01T17:03:00.000+08:00

Firstly, I'VE RUN OUT OF TEARS. Donate some? T.T I never have this feeling before. I'm carring a very extremly BIG BOMB that will explode whenever it's want due to my Form 2 life. Seriously, i'm really really SAD. This time is a very challenging problems compare to last years. As a PRS trainee, i don't know how to console myself! WHAT SHOULD I DO?? I used my time and asked myself some questions. That is:

What happen to me? I'm HURTS.
Why i'm hurts? Because i receive a thing that i never ever want it.
What should i do? Nothing. Make a change on personal attitude.
When will my problems settle? I dunno? I HOPE IT WILL BE ASAP.
Why is this happening to me? Course i'm sucks!

The things i can do is ask myself question and answed them. But WHAT SHOULD I ACTUALLY DO? I'm sorry that i make you so stressful but I'M STRESS TOO~ I promise you that i'll make a change mean I WILL!! Give me a week. Just a week. I have to tell you something..when i read the things you gave me this morning, my tears rolled off like tap water. When i walked pass you, what i can do is look down without facing you. This is because i don't know what i should do? Should i wave, smile or say 'HI' like normally what we used to do? I REALLY DON'T KNOW. Anyway, my sudden hurt by you make me did a stupid things. (don't want to talk about it). By the way, i really can't wait for 12th February even there's no HOPE! I'm wondering will i get it or will i not? Or maybe the 3 stuff had been throw in the rubbish bin. T.T Last but not least, I'M SORRY!!!

Haiz

2010-01-30T22:56:00.000+08:00

Winnie, i doesn't want any problems happen between the circle or friendship that all of us have this two years. I know you're helping Charmaine but try to think the other side, did she do wrong? She did something wrong! Everyone have attitude problem include me! Don't tell me you don't have any! Charmaine is a good friend and she used to confort me when i'm sad. But did you know that i also did that to her? Do you know that she scolded me without any reason? I know she always scold people when she bad mood, but IT HURTS OTHERS FEELING. Even Ewei also said so. She just simply scold a person without any reason and did not say SORRY at all~ When i'm moody, i did not scold her or anyone. Yesyerday during YE, i was talking to Jolene and you keep on asked me question. RESPECT ME WHEN I'M TALKING!! You make me shout at you! You can't blame it on me course YOU DID THAT TO ME MANY TIMES DY! As for the Pykett, Charmaine is in MARCHING! SHE'S A MARCHERS, but why are you guys still complaining? Got too much time or tring to take attention? I DON'T KNOW. I side Shinq doesn't mean i side seniors. Everyone got their own choices to CHOOSE what they want! I believe in what i see, that is..the comander treat us fairly! Is just that Charmaine attitude is really reallt RUDE. That's all~ Even I kena the most from her. And why are seniors sucks like sh*t? YOUR SISTER NOT SENIOR??? -.- even if you hate senior, we don't have to follow you. WE GOT THE ABILITY TO CHOOSE. I used to spent more time with Form 5's is because they are leaving. WHY ARE YOU THINKING ON THE OTHER WAY ROUND?? Please la winnie, peoples doesn't have to side their friends even close one. I'm a person who will side those who correct! If you're not wrong, i'm sure i'll side you guys. BUT THE PROBLEM IS she's the one correct! Like what Ewei said, stand at where you are. WE ONLY KNOW EACH OTHER FOR A YEAR NIA like that ki liao. What about me and EWEI?? We all 7 years dy you know? Talk to Charmaine and think what you have just said to me. Think of what you have do wrong! I've finish thinking and i realize that i'm wrong in side-ing the seniors but not you all but I GET TO CHOOSE. I be with senior more doesn't mean that i hate you all. My life is for my ownself to choose. My choices is base on my knowledge and feeling. So, i really want this problems to OVER! Don't fight because pf those small stuff. If this problem without YOU, I think me and Charmaine had already settle! But too bad~ you join in and make it deeper. == That's all what i wanna say! =)

"Perang Saudara"??? No way!!!

2010-01-12T16:31:00.000+08:00

It's not 'Perang Saudara'. We won't be talking anymore. You're too over. Why are you chassing me away from the table when you're not the OWNER OF THE TABLE??? It's not your table so you got nothing to chase me away! I want to sit or stand is my choices. You got a confortable and big place to sit and what's the point you scolded me?? Very SHIOK la is it??? I'm not the 'buruh' kay. I'm not eating so what? I'm DRINKING!!! Still consider got something went into the body kay. LOL Fyi (For your information), you're the one who make Jolene bo mood. Not ME!!! What do you mean by I'm the only one who always make Jolene bo mood. SIAO!!! You ask everyone not to talk to her(Jo) and you all gossip + hurt her. Why are you blamming everything on me??? I 'SU' you only you know. Let wait and see... HMPH! I got the choices to choose YES or NO! Next time, i'll be saying NO to the things i don't want to do. But you must thank God that i doesn't stand up and ask 'lenna' come wallap you or maybe you must thank God because i did not scold you in a very LOUD voices. *Aiya wasted nia..i talked back! Not shout back. Ish*. Anyway, I will balas dendam one day. =) But don't worry. I'll just scold you..not KILL YOU!!!

Ps: This person punya surname start with 'L'. In Form 2 Biru!!!

2010-01-02T14:45:00.000+08:00

JUST TELL ME IF YOU'RE IGNORING ME

Here It Goes The Times We Spend

2009-12-16T16:04:00.000+08:00

I get the best feeling in the world when you say Hi to me or even smile because i know for a second i crossed your mind. I know you for sooo many years and hope for the friendship to last forever but IT WAS JUST A HOPE. To real life, there won't be friends who stay forever~ Let's see what we have share together in these few years since the day i met you.

So here's to...

The crap we talked

The way we shop

Laughs we can't stop

The gossip we spill

The look that could kill

We'll stay together

Cause we're friends

But this is life. Here comes a time in life when we have to let go of all the pointless drama and people who create it and surround ourself with people who make us laugh. So hard to forget the bad and focus on the good. After all, Life is too short to be unhappy so let's enjoy ourself. Maybe is a good things to let it stay like this. I trusted you alot and tough you're a good friend but you keep on acting like this. You control me on everything and make my friend ran away from me.(The past) You're a good friend but i won't be trusting you anymore. We will still be friends but not the CLOSE one. THE END~~

2009-11-27T12:40:00.000+08:00

ARGH WHY DO LIFE

AREN'T EASY AT ALL???

IT THIS WHY IT'S CALLED AS A LIFE???

There is no worth to treat "ALL" your friends good!!

2009-11-18T15:46:00.000+08:00

Do you think treating your friends good can get a better friendship?? NO!! You're wrong. Listen to me. Friends yes, they may treat you good but only TRUE friends do this~ For example, i got a friends that i always share my problems with and she will help me no matter how or what! But things happens only once in your life. She actually dislike me..She talked bad behind me. But why is she still act so good in front of me?!? So, i don't really trust anyone dy. ONLY SOME OF THEM THAT CAN BE TRUST. What can i do??? I'm not the God. I don't know what is happening in the future. Maybe me and my k'sister will not talk to each other like what happen to the previous one?? So, i have to appreciate the times left for us~ Last word, There is no worth to treat all your friends good!! Learn how to choose good friends. Not like me..always choose the wrong person and get hurt. My heart still got scar on it!! =(

~End up with happinese~

2009-11-13T15:03:00.000+08:00

Friendship really that important?? My answer is "Yes and No!". Yes is for those who really treat you as a friend. To me friends can share all the happinese or sadness together, trust you but not talk behind you, goes together nomatter good or bad times and friends will always be there for you! But too bad cause most of my friends doesn't get what i want! Only a few of them have it~ =)

I met a friend once in my life and it end up like this without notics. Of cause i will definetly feels bad but I'm happy. For your information, i'm not happy because both of our friendship end but happy because this friendship actually happen in my life. So, i'm not crazy lah kay~Haha =D I enjoy almost everyday in school with the friend i have mentioned. I really miss that moments and hope i can get to feel it again~ But things just happen only once in our life. I can't reverse the time! So what i have to do now is let the friendship goes to the END! I don't mind. I still have both of my k'sister and a very confuse and big family in school~ I hate people who act kind infront of me but talk behind me! I saw her real person through one of my friend and i get to know her very well..So now i could say is..~THIS FRIENDSHIP REALLY END UP FULL WITH HAPPINESE~ Don't worry i won't cry or sad because of this! =) *smile*

About what happening in my life this week..

2009-11-06T15:27:00.000+08:00

~Tuesday~

My class got a very annoying person that wanna get first in everything! She want her marks to be the highest among all of us! She keep on asking teacher to give her marks by telling teacher's that her answer is correct. All the teacher's get annoyed by her.She keep on explaines her answer is the correct one! Teacher's told her that her answer is wrong but she still want to argue. walau, i first time saw this type of person in my life. She even keep on shoot-ing my science teacher that her answer is correct and ask teacher for marks. Harlo! If wrong means wrong la..how can you ask teacher to give you marks like that?? A word from my Form 5 friend, "Just admit if u're stupid". Why wanna get the marks by begging and shoot-ing teacher?? Just study hard to get better result la~ sweat nia! So, during science lesson, Jolene ran up to teacher and save her by blocking and pushing the person away! Our science teacher thanked Jolene for saving her..After the bell rang, our BM teacher came in for moral lesson. She gave us our marks and test paper. Before that, we already bet that the person will go to teacher and debate.. we bet for 100 bucks! A few minutes later, that person really go to teacher and start to debate. A word from Ewing, "No wonder she so good in debating..cause she join debate club one ma". *slap forehead* Then the same thing happen.. Teacher get fed up and want to jump down from the building! Jolene again go and save teacher. GOOD JOB JOLENE!!! Moral teacher thanked Jolene for saving her again!! Woohoo~ =) Like what Winnie said, Jolene is a HEROIN. haha. lol.

~Wednesday~

During science lesson, i'm busying conforting Carina at the back of my class near the piano while everyone is in the front of the class crowd-ing all over my science teacher. I don't know why and i don't even cared bout it and continue giving advise to Carina. Suddenly, Jolene walked to me and cried. I ask her why and she say something that i don't understand! I ask her not to cry cause i can't hear what is she talking about. She is skut-ing down beside me. After awhile, Jolene stand up and hugged me while still crying..I give her a hug back and ask her what happen?? Before she could answer my question, I already get a shock by looking at Winnie's action. She's fighting and debating with that person. The teacher tried to stop them but she fail. I faster ran to the front of my class to pull winnie from doing that. We (Me, Jolene, Winnie, Ewing, Ewei, Charmaine and Snowy) went out from the class and went for a walk. Winnie started to cry. I hug her and confort her..She still scolding the person to us. Jolene is still crying till her eyes gone red. Snowy also cried. (MIRACLE)~~~ Jolene ran off with snowy and leave all of us. Then ewei and ewing being called by su fen to do something. Me and winnie go walk..I saw her crying then i also cry..siao one~We saw Pn Tan in the Perdagangan and tell her what is happening..she went back to the class and settle everything.. YAY! =D

This happen la..i lazy to write dy la..

PARASITE

2009-11-02T16:23:00.000+08:00

What is PARASITE?!?

An organism which lives in or on another organism and benefits at the other's expense. (For example, a leaves that need other types of tree to survive. Read from Geo)

How to become a PARASITE???

Maximum height limit 140 cm.
Must have "CUTENESS".
Must have the ability to suck the life out of teacher's.
Having a sicknese that cannot be cure, called as PERASAN.

Back to the point! She did not notices that she is too over. She can't survive without jack-ing teachers. I don't know why? But this happen in her life. A word told by my friend,"She uses her cute-ness to make people like her. But unfortunately, it doesn't work on seniors".She always taugh that she was the BEST person in the world! This is what call as PERASAN la~~~ As usual she will shout to the whole class for asking everyone to keep quiet with the anoying voices she have! You know what? It sound like the aunty selling vegetables in the morning market. ARGH!! I'm so sorry i have to say this but it's TRUE~Btw, i'm too lazy to update anymore. Will be updating next time! This post about PARASITE will be having in Winnie's, Jolene's and Charmaine's blog. Thank You!

Changing

2009-10-17T19:14:00.000+08:00

i can't do anything else except for change! Change not to be so childish! I'm making alots of people depress by having loads of problems. I realize that yesterday night! One of my friend told me..i kiam kiam lost a friend by being depress!! *still don't know weather how?* . For example like what i think last time/the day before yesterday is, i expect oh tomorrow I wanna see a golden horse and I must see that golden horse. But the next day i will get disappointed because i didn't see that horse. But now, i made up my mind! If i din't see that golden horse, i'll wait..wait till the day come! I won't sad because i din't see the horse! I have to expect things less and the most unexpected things will happen in my life. I must see life as a simple road and along the way the magic and colours and decoration of life will come in. As for my friends, If they say that everything i did is wrong, i'll PROVE to them that i'm right! If they blame everything on me, i'll take those lesson to be STRONGER!! If they say that i'm useless, i'll ask them, "Are you better than me?". If they scold me, i'll stay cool and act like i'm not being scolded! If they treat me in such a bad manner, it means that they don't even want to keep this friendship! So i will fan xing on everything! Can this make my life easier and make all of your life easier?? I'm taking all these advise! Thanks to someone i always trust!! =) and to the person who want me to change, i hope i have did what you want? If got anything else, just tell me. You won't hurt me but help me! I wish to maintain everything!! I'm waiting for your respond!! That's all.. * i hope you will let me know!*

Shinq's here

2009-10-11T13:46:00.000+08:00

Hello people! She is a good sister. Although she has lots of problem that makes her cry or sad. But she try to show that she is strong. But she is lonely, I know I can't really help her. But I will try to make her happy Most of the time it does not work eider! Most of us think that she is crazy! But she is not. The main hing to make her happy is to believe in her!Not only that YOU ALSO HAVE TO BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!
I just feel you have to be strong. Just forget everything that happen in the past! It maybe a bad dream.

p.s. Chia Ying without your permission I wrote it in your blog.

My Life goes This Way???

2009-10-10T21:23:00.000+08:00

Back to this blog..i don't wish i have to write in this blog cause it is full with sadness!! But i have to cause now i'm not suitable to be in my new blog..That one happy one!! But i'm Sad!! I feel so dissapointed when i saw people celebrating birthday with friends..You know why? Cause i don't have friends who care for me..Only i care for them..They just wish me a simple Happy Birthday nia~ Cincai like that..suak dy! But when their turn, i make and think the best present or things for them..This is because i treat them as my friend..Like other people,they will do something very special for their friend. For example, made a blog for a person full with memories and stuff! If i get that for my birthday..i sure will be very very happy!! But too bad! I don't have true friends..Last time have but now no more dy! I'm their friends when they feel bored! But i'm just a statue when they have others friends..And i hate people ignore me or anything!!! Just don't act like you din't see me when walk pass me or what..For me, i will feel very hurt!! So just treat me like a human la..i'm not a statue anyway~

Everything is going fine..

2009-09-20T14:45:00.000+08:00

Hey back to blog..I'm so glad that everything gonna be fine =D..Yay! so happy..i have to start wory bout my exam d..haiz! Everyone..Try your best ya~Good luck!Oh ya..so people i have learn something new in my life..that is friends come in and out of your life but only true friends leave their footprints”. =) You have to expect things less and the most unexpected things will happen in your life. Now from what I see is like you expect oh tomorrow I wana see a golden horse and I must see that golden horse. But the next day you get disappointed because you didn't see that horse. You must see life as a simple road and along the way the magic and colours and decoration of life will come in. You can't always just keep secrets cos its too much for a person. The more you keep you gonna get penyakit sakit jiwa one day I tell you. So that's all for now..xD

Merdeka Celebration!!!

2009-09-11T15:52:00.000+08:00

tOday my school is celebrating Merdeka Day's...so we went up to the hall after recess!! It was quite bored!! Me and jolene go kacau our class sister prefect..Josephine Goh!! haha..there are indians dance,malay dance, and class singing!! 4 Perdagangan is singing the Malaysia song with is make me feel so 'kam tung'..so sad! The rap part was so geng!! *WOW!*love that song... Oh ya..the Mix Family got add ppl and the describe ady..hehe xD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=08w40TfmNNg

Normal Life!!

2009-09-02T20:53:00.000+08:00

Back to blog again!!Nowadays,my life goes normal..everyday wake up early in the morning for school..study..do homework..get ignore *as usual* la..eat..talk nonsence with the whole gang..jokes and laugh all around even it's not funny *some only*..and lots more la!! I lazy to blogging ady! So i only update when i feel like updating...wateva! don't care..btw.exam is coming next month d..i need to start to work hard now..i feel like not studying la..but i noe i can't!! haiz..Last week during hoidays,i did nothing! i din online cos for some reason la!! i go tuition.. i do my holiday homework and watch tv..totally BORED!!! I hate holidays...besides tht, everyday i will get a very anoying msg from someone!! i already tahan for long! But can the person control herself not to disturb people since people has ignore her??? I'm having quite bad mood and get pek chek with the msg!!! Make me hot nia...*i'm sorry to say that*
The picture above can say everything!!!Update next time...gtg...

The Forms 1's Mix Family Tree!(got new members)

2009-08-14T17:35:00.000+08:00

Back to Blog! Since last month(I think),we have a big family in school!!! It call as Mix Family cos our sur-name is difference...we mix everything together so it call as MIX FAMILY!! It all started becos of me and Winnie...Let me introduce :-

Great great great Grandma: Chia Yuen- ++ old(hehe) the kindest person!!

Great great Grandma: Pei Wen- + old(being force to be in the family but at last oso agree) thank me..

Great Grandma: Su Fen- very old liao...haha

Grandfather: Sammie-already 78 years,got two wives,love to eat sweet things even 'he got diabetes cancer( don rely care)...CHILDISH!

Grandmother: Sybrina- 76 years, love to nag, act like princess, always buli her own grandchild.

Step Grandma: Stephanie-50 years, my grandpa 2nd wife!, very kind,always good at making ppl *pek chek*

1st Aunt: Carina- very young but donno her ages, got two anak angkat name Charmaine and Mel ,always good in *perasan-ing*

2nd Aunt: Ewing- a very kind aunt, got a bf name "Jia Chun",very good in kiam siap-ing.

Mother: Winnie-responsible, got 4 daughter , got husband tht din see b4 his daghter*useless* always flirt with other guy*Slap forehead*, and love to shout!

Father: Kevin- useless father tht din see his 4 daughter b4!*daughter oso din meet him b4* don noe weather he loves Mother a not?!?

1st Daughter: Chia Ying(ME)- love her sister!!*seriously*

2nd Daughter: Ewei- very quiet..

3rd Daughter: Snowy- always busy walking here and there!

4th Daughter: Jolene- very cute and always hyper, always buli her 1st Sis.

so...how izit???CONFUSE??

must i or must i not??

2009-08-10T21:15:00.000+08:00

back to blog..i would like to share a real story..i have a friend..i mean close friend..betray me! Is like she use me to make new friends and use me to MAKE UP STORY!! last time, i trust her..cos i din ever think b4 tht she will betray me!! Until last month, someone came and told me everything~i was shocked to get tht news but later..i get use to it! I did not go tell anyone about wat happening and i just keep myself quiet cos i don wan to make the problem worst! And i'm sure if i tell siapa-siapa oso no point! No one belive me..i wonder if i can ignore her anot!But is soo hard to ignore ur friend!End up here...

PLURK!!!

2009-08-08T15:00:00.000+08:00

I though plurk can make me tell out how i feel since there are no ppl understand me..but,i found out tht plurk is for me to see ppl talk!!!I plurk wat oso no use..no respond oso*not lenna lah*...When my friend plurk..."i'm sad",walau...alot ppl will respond...but when i say "i'm sad",no respond!!!So in real life...i din get to talk my feelimg,in plurk oso i can't talk my feeling!!!CAN BUT TO MYSELF!!!So wat is wrong wif my life when i cum to secondary after APRIL???

My life!

2009-08-07T17:52:00.000+08:00

back to blog..i'm not happy at all...i still can't forget about the pass and i can't forgive the person who betray me...i've try to put a smile on my face everday in school...is so hard to force myself doing something i don like!!!I rely don have the mood to smile..i don wan to show tht i'm sad cos i don wan my friends to make up story again!!!I don wan to make the same mistake anymore!!!Is soo hard to say the feeling...i don noe who i can share my feeling to..and who can i trust?!?No one understand me,no one talk to me,no one listen to how i feel when i tell them,no one cares bout me and no one LOVES me!!!So who can i talk my feeling to???I reli don understand when the game would stop!!!

So what's the problem?!?

2009-07-27T16:41:00.000+08:00

See!!!Don say i EMO again..u all think i wan izit?What should i do?I rely don noe!!! I aeready changed...aeready change alot! I did not cry k...why u all keep on say i cry?!? I did but it is the pass!!!But i have change! I did not cry becos of that things anymore! Why you all still wanna tell them that i cry becos of them???I DID NOT!!!Why you all wanna tell lies???Why?She won't talk to me anymore!!!She say she won't care bout me anymore!Why you all keep on make me suffer like dis???I noe i did cry when i wrote dis but human being's have feeling wan k...*harlO..i'm HUMAN*Not i purposely wanna cry!Why can't you all just stop betraying me?I did not betray u all but why u all betray me???They don't listen to me anymore!!!How much i explain oso no use!!!SO WAT I CAN DO TO TELL THEM I DID NOT???Is the pass!!!understand??? I have lost 2 1/2 of my friends!!! I'm sure who will be the next one!!!Why you all want to ruin my friendship???And no one keep secret!!!I don trust anyone anymore!!! I rely don noe wat to do!!! It was like a storm in my head!!! I don noe wat idea i can do to tell them I DID NOT?!?Who can help me???I noe i,myself can help bout it but i can't!!!I plurk oso no point!NO RESPOND!!!Not even one!!!I did not go for YE sales,u all say i don wan to meet them,Tht's why i don wan to go!But is not!If you don noe the truth,just keep ur mouth shut lah...can you all just emagine Chia Ying standing at the YE stall without anyone notics?!?An invisible girl standing at the busy stall looking at how fun her friends and the YE members having fun but not include her???Sad rite!!!Btw,no one wish i cold go!Just wish i couldn't go!!!So how izit???I can't brainwash them cos they got their own plan planning how to ruin the next friendship i have!!!So how izit if i write a karangan in dis blog???Nothing gonna change!!!I noe i must solve myself but i have out of idea...i dunno how to get it back!!!No point to talk face to face rite!!!No point use to MSG!!!Haiz give me opinion wat to do can ar???

Make it come true!!!

2009-07-22T20:12:00.000+08:00

Back to blog!!!1st thing is i will fail my sejarah!!!Ahhhh....i love my friends...u noe why???Cos someone rather wan my dream come true as her b'day present!She don't wan her Super Junior!She wan me to get back something i wan but i noe it won't happen!!!It won't happen in my life k...I'll just did wat she wish...and just did it as a exercise since it won't happen...hehe...forget bout it girl!!!Haiz...see my life sucks much!!!So wish me all the best...xD

What's the point???

2009-07-20T16:22:00.000+08:00

What's the point for being a person that is so UNRESPECTFUL by others???No point rite..U try to respect them but they did not notice..Oops i forget to write the main point...hehe...here are something i found out in my life today!!!Seriously T.O.D.A.Y oni i found out!!!Friends can't last forever...wanna noe why?I'll tell u...Firstly,when u decided to buy a expensive gift for ur friends,someone will think tht u wan a big balasan from them...Secondly,when u have bad mood..they will think u're childish!Thirdly,when u try to cooperate wif some others senior fren..they will think tht u're going to stalk them...And the worse thing is they keep on gossip you right INFRONT of you...i feel like my heart has broke into pieces and my head is going to burst!!! i'm shouting for HELP but no one help me!!!And another thing is some ppl complaine that i write alot in my blog!!!Siao~so rmb tht just be urself and keep quite can liao...if cry can make u feel better,just go ahead!!!

Green Run!!!

2009-07-17T21:46:00.000+08:00

BAck to blog!Today we're having green run at botanical garden...I reach there around 7.15!The first things i do when i reach is to find where is jolene,ewing and snowy they all...pagi pagi need to do exercise liao..haiz..at last i found them sitting and talking with their friend...manatahu when i talk to them,they try to ignore me pula...wat kind of friend is dis???Then another things is wat the mean by DRUG??? I mean all my friend is talking something like"Eh,where is my drug?"or "Oh.is over there"!!!My mind was full with '?' on that time...i ask them wat izit but they just ignore me until i found out tht it was just a COLA!Sampat betul..Actually we plan to jog...but we even don have the strength to walk oso...we all very old liao hoh?!?Haha~On the last round we have to run!!!When i was near to the ending line,i totally cannot run liao...my leg,heart and gastric pain...i feel like giving up but i told myself that either how oso i must finish running...so i try all my best to jog but one of my friend beside me was cheering and asking me to run...she keep on saying that still left a few step more but i feel like there still got a long way to run...swtt!=.="
But i oso try to run...when i reach,i straight away skut down and take a long breath...i even don have the strength to spell my name properly to the teacher...haha~then when i came back...my leg musle start to hurt and now..i'm shouting for HELP!!!

Let's say S.O.R.R.Y

2009-07-15T15:51:00.000+08:00

S.O.R.R.Y!!!

i don wish the same thing would happen!!!

2009-07-11T20:32:00.000+08:00

Haiz...back to blog...nowadays i think i have put myself in the same wrong situations...i reli reli wish tht all my friends would be happy...include me!!!I don wan the same thing to hapen in me lk last time...i don wan to lost any of my friends anymore...sometimes i just wish i could help but my idea is always FAIL!!!Firstly,I must thanks Winnie for supporting me in everything i do...Secondly..thanks to Jolene for her good experience for telling me wad to do...Third is thank to Jinq Wen for helping me so much...And the last is thank everone for giving me so much happiness and caring!!! I dunno wat to do if i lost all of you...So anyway...i beg all my friends pls don leave me and always be there for me...i rely need you guys so much...End up here...i need to go rest d...get HIGH FEVER!!! Luckily not H1N1...

Am i suppose to be happy of sad now???

2009-06-24T16:29:00.004+08:00

I'm back to blog again..Let's start here!!!Today i felt happy in school bcos today is the 1st day i felt so high after the 1st of April...I rely enjoy myself wif Jolene, Carina, Sammie, Snowy, Ewing, Winnie,Ivvonne,and some of my other friends!!!All of us are having good mood today...so we started to joke...We laugh and laugh the whole day until i met something happen after school...as
usual,i'll wait for my parents to fetch me home and there's raining outside!!!Outside the canteen, me and carina was still joking non-stop!!!Suddenly Snowy come and ask me to go share the joke wif Sammie...me and Snowy ma go find her loh...we talk and laugh again..At the same time, i found out something...i found out tht my fren who standing infront of me look so SAD so i decided to cheer her up lk wat she always do to me when i'm sad!!!*the friend is not sammie or snowy..is other ppl k*!!!I talk to her and confort her but it doesn't seen lk my idea is working... she still look very sad and i found out tht she's lk tring to ignore me...maybe i was to small to cheer her up but i don wish to see her unhappy!!!When i talk to her,she got smile but is the 3 second smile...i rely wish tht i could help to make her feel better but i think i hav make it WORST now...
I rely worried tht she will angry and all i have to do now is keep quiet and let her make herself happy!!!I don ever dare to confort a fren who is bigger than me anymore...i rely scared of it!!!
Now,i hope she won be angry or sad anymore and i hope she will get good result for the coming test next month...All i wan to say to her is CHEER UP DON B SAD,SMILE ALWAYS and GOOD LUCK 4 UR EXAM!!!jia you k...So dis is y i said "Am i suppose to be happy or sad now":D or T_T

My Sad Day Again!!!

2009-06-23T18:10:00.000+08:00

Back to blog!!!Actually i don reli understand y i got so much stress in my life???I'm not lk my friends having studies problems but i have my own life problems...Not family or school problems but i have personality friends problems!!!I just wan a person to understand me but is so hard and i noe it won't be happen in my life!!!I have try to put myself in the happy situation in school but u noe actually how i feel and how i use to think in my heart???U all though i love to being EMO and make myself look sad everyday???Ppl hates being emo and no one ever wan to b sad in their life!!!I have try all my best to smile and joke wif all my friends...Today i get a letter told by my friends tht they r not going to talk to me for a week!!!But y they suddenly wan to find me to make an experiment???They ask me not to b sad but i feel more sad when they sent me the letter!!!B4 they give me the letter,i have feel lk they got no longer gonna talk to me bcos they look different!!!WHY is everyone hiding froem me???As i said,i always ask myself y but i don have an answer for it!!!I don noe y can't i have a day tht make me happy and all my friends are there lk before...After i went to FORM 1,i have change alot!!! I oni live in a happy way for 4 months in secondary!!! April onwards,i have been hate and every of my friends is hiding away from me...I'm sorry if i have did anything wrong to u all but i hope u all at least can make me feel happy lk the pass...i rely miss tht moment...i oni wish u all can make me happy...not asking u all to give me a million thousands or the whole world rite!!!i wan't H.A.P.P.Y!!! Not S.A.D k!!!Anyway, i noe it wouldn't happen so i must STOP myself from dreaming but i oso hope all my dreams can cum true...very easy!!!Got all my friends back and have no stress in my life!!!Haiz...then it will b a very HAPPY ENDING!!!

Nothing to do!!! let me intoduce my friends to you

2009-06-19T15:23:00.000+08:00

First of all...

Jolene Yin
Her name is Jolene.My best friend..She's a very nice and cute person compare to all my other friends!!!*is true*She love to make us laugh and she can make us happy whenever we're feeling moody..She always help me to solve my problem...She is also a very hardworking member in KOOP!!!*u can see her always busy running here and there in school to help Pn Jennifer*..
Jolene is very clever in SCIENCE!!!*seriously*She is also very popular to the seniors...*all the seniors very sayang her*When u hang out wif her,u won't feel bored...very FUN!!!haha~Jolene play clarinet in Orchestra..She forever will b my bestest friend...xD

Eunice Lim
Her full name is Eunice Lim E-Wei..She is one of my best friend!!!Dis girl very quiet one and she won't ki high lk wat we always do...She always sit down and chill over there!!!Haha~She is good in Math...Oh ya~She LOVES bread!!!*yummy*Everyday u will see her eating bread..bread..
bread...hahaha...Eunice play VIOLA!!!Alah...haiz..Ok tht all for her since i dunno wat to write about her!!!

Ewing
Ewing nick name is CHICKEN WING'S'!!!Hahahaha!!!Nola *jkjk*if u lk,u can call her chicken wings as well...she don mind!!!haha~Ini orang sometimes very kiam siap one...KIAM SIAP PO...lol...nothing about her liao..

Snowy Lim
I dunnoe wat to say bout her lah~*i don rely understand her*can say is very kind loh...

Carina Lee
Carina always lk to daydreaming in class!!!She say she loves MATH..but the true is she lk the other things*Shhh...*hehe~The next things is she have settle her problem by herself...so nice~
*i wonder when i can settle my problem since many problems coming towards me T_T*...
Carina love to sing...*she always sing in class*haha...OK!!NEXT!!!

Winnie
Winnie Giam...play saxophone*i donnoe how to spell..hehe*Winnie is our class MATH genius!!!
*i'm not kidding k*She got lots problem in her life!!!Worse then mine...Many teachers hates her but all of us LOVES her!!!She also loves to sing...Winnie siao Wang Lee Hom!!!*seriously very siao*haha...

Charmaine Ng
Dis cha mi very ma huan one...She always find problems for herself!!!tht y i say she very ma huan!!!Ppl don wan problem but she wan problems to come towards her...haiz...beh hiao kong lah~We don rely understand wat is she talking about or thinking about...Not so close o her anyway~haha

Sammie
Sammie ah sammie...dis is wat we usually say to her bcos she love to make ppl pek cheik!!!She is a clever girl but she always think negatif!!!Sammie like LIN YU CHONG!!!OMG!!!haha~xP She always get complaning by us for being so anoying...*is true*Ok next one...

Last but not least

Stephanie
Stephanie!!!Our old friends...she love to kacau ppl wan!!!But she's a very nice friends...Her cousin in Charmaine...is not Charmaine NG!!!is Charmaine CHENG k!!!*don misunderstand*
if Charmaine Ng is her cousin,i'm sure Stephanie will tiao lau si...haha...
DONE~still got alot but i'll post next time...i lazt ady!!!Hehe

Go Watch!!! So funny!!!

2009-06-19T14:57:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AGViouBPNIU

My favourite songs...

Miley Cyrus-The Climb

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vmxiftD0aH8

My Very Sad Day!!!

2009-06-18T17:12:00.000+08:00

I'm back to blog...i noe there's no one will read wat i wrote and nobody even left a comments in my cbox! But other then writing in my blog wat is happening to me in my blog,i don noe how to share my sadness wif my friends...u noe y? becos no one ever understand ME!!!Why i said today is my sad day is bcos today everyone seen to b very weird!!! The way all my friends treat me is lk i got some virus and they don dare to talk to me and they keep on ignore me...actually wat i hav did wrong and makes everyone running away from me???i always ask myself why i don have an answer for it!!!Other than tht,WHY izit all my friends can get so well along wif senior but not ME???They got happiness and they share their sadness together but i only can share everything to myself and my LAME blog...i won't do anything tht bad to my friends or seniors but they keep on hiding from me...they don noe how sad am i and they don noe how i feel!!!I just wan everyone to b fair and i can get friends who understand and care for me...tht all!!!
Wat i wan to do now is keep quite and pretend tht i'm happy!!!
My wish is...

1)got someone cares for me
2)no one ignore me
3)i can get all my friends back
4)got ppl who understand me
And last..got a best friend who always will be there for me when i need some help!!!

I hate you!!!

2009-06-15T18:37:00.000+08:00

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I hate you

I do not KNOW you

I hate hate hate hate hate hate the hate hate you

HATE ……..HATE…………..HATE………………..HATE………………….

HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE …………YOU

IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII H A T E YOU

Why?

Because I do.Not rely lah..='(

holiday lifes

2009-06-14T12:18:00.000+08:00

I think my blog dead ady..i din rely post things cos i lazy..haha
let's talk about wat i did during dis two weeks..everyday did the same things
lk sleep,online,watch tv and play.haha.Other than tht,i also got ttn..Holiday also must
study one ma..Last Thursday my friend from Johor came to Penang.We went to Bukit
Bendera and some others places.Damn boring lah..Oh ya.I still not yet collect the money
for bacaton yet..Tmr die ady!!!i dunnoe wat i can gv to my teacher...

Here are some picture...

We went to Haagen-Darz on Wednesday night...YUMMY!!!

The next day,to the beach behind Holiday Inn hotel

My cute fan...cute boh?!?

The lame Bukit Bendera

The view look down from Bukit Bendera

Hehe finish d hope there's not boring..xD

Back to blog!!!

2009-05-16T23:33:00.000+08:00

Ok back to blog...wat i should say???NOTHING...haha...Dump right!!!
Monday got KH test leh...i din't study all of it yet..
i hate "perdagangan"!Is so hard to remember...
And my Karangan...hope i can get 'A' again...hehe abit perasan...
I think i shold stop here cos there are nothing for me to crap d...
I will try to post more interesting stuff k...>.-

If i die tommorow...

2009-05-16T23:15:00.000+08:00

If I died tomorrowwould you regret this fight
would you wish you talked to me
instead of pretending I don't exist

If I died tomorrow would you cry for me
would you feel like you want me as your friend
for making me suffer
If I died tomorrow

would you forgive me
would you be the one to say
she deserved better than this

If I died tomorrow
would you really know
would you know that you're my best friend
and that I died for you

ps:if the person who read dis,then she will noe who she is...

HaPpY bIrThDaY JiNq wEn!!!

2009-05-16T00:10:00.001+08:00

Now is 12:00 midnight and i'm here to wish my best friend a very very HApPy bIrThDaY...Gimmie cake...haha

Poems for you...

Our friendship is as close as closest sisters,Two flutes with a single melody,Interchanging runs through changing vistas,Notes like birds alighting on a tree.To some, friends are like books upon a shelf;Yet you to me are like another self.This music will not stop for other misters,Nor will it pause for princes, real or elf.However life may wend, we will be we.Best Friend Forever ya~

Friends care, Friends share, We need friends Everywhere!

happy friendship time!!!

2009-05-15T23:57:00.000+08:00

HAPPY FRIENDSHIP WEEK TO YOU!!!YOU ARE MY FRIEND AND I'M HONORED...

F-few

R-relations

I-in

E-earth

N-never

D-die

I LoVe YoU aLl mY FrIeNd.....

MUAKzzzzzzzzz

don't forget ya...

wish everyone good luck in their exam!!!

2009-05-15T21:01:00.000+08:00

Good Luck everyone...i wonder if i can pass my Science,Sejarah and Geografi?
My Moral can go Siao liao lah!!!so hard to remember...i dunno why exam coming d but i still can cum online?Maybe there r sumthing wrong in my brain!!!Haha...Ok i think i have crap alot de...End up here lah!!!xD

What a big SURPRISE?!?

2009-05-14T16:50:00.000+08:00

Ok Today is a very surprise day 4 me.I stay back in school to do the freaking NIE project!

last week,Jolene suddenly angry of me and she din't talk to me until today...i got so worry about tht and i was scolding myself everyday...For example,useless,cannot let our friendship maintain and more~

Just now Jolene oso din't talk to me for the whole day!But when we went to the canteen after came out from the computer lab,Jolene suddenly cum and sit beside me and talk to me!WOW~i was wondering tht izit i'm dreaming or high fever?haha~then she told me tht she play wif me nia...walau she can tahan 4 more than a week leh...PRO!!!

Then i start to think tht izit Yean Shinq also play wif me wan?Maybe she pakat wif Jolene they all and trick me...but STOP DREAMING LAH CHIA YING!she won't care about you and she din't think b4 tht you and her friendship can still maintain...HOW SAD!!!

all my FAULT lah~i made it broke wan...Last tuesday,Winnie ask me to write a letter to tell Yean Shinq all the truth tht she dunno...i listen to Winnie and i start to write a letter to explain!I wrote until 410 words k...

Then just now when i go in plurk to see...she wrote there dat got one Sot gurl lie to me!she lie tht she help her friend dis and dat!

When i tell the truth,no one belive!Izit everyone want me to tell lies???

I rely don understand y senior always think NEGATIF?

all my friends can get so well along wif senior but y can't i?

Ish i have burst alot but NO USE oso...BURST can't solve problems...

Why i have a life tht sucks much???ISH...

I"M SUCKS

Weird and Funny day!!!

2009-05-11T16:04:00.000+08:00

Ok back to blog!Today was a very funny and weird day i haven't met in my school...
Carina was having a very weird sickness.Her whole body was gatal and she was like a monkey tht cannot sit properly!Haha!after a few minutes looking at her emotional,we start feeling the same like her...WEIRD...we r screching non-stop...Our teacher was laughing and she say we luan luan think oni can get like dat one.Later,our teacher also felt the same like us...So funny!!!Our whole class was laughing non-stop!!!Hahahaha...

my problems!!!=)

2009-04-25T22:29:00.000+08:00

I Don't Understand What Happened to Us

I don't understand what happened to us
Or why you have turned away.
Of course you are free to do as you like,
But first I have something to say.
To me it had seemed we could go on forever,
So close were our hearts, and at ease,
So much did we share, yet the words never faltered,
So I thought as time did as it pleased.
Whatever I did that has made you unhappy,
Or am that is not to your taste,
Or would be were I to return to your graces,
Or won't be if I am replaced:
I want you to know that your friendship is something
I treasure, and would not now end.
If you would be willing to turn to embrace me,
You'd find in me still a good friend.

This is my friendship problems in my life...Btw I won’t be sad bout it anymore cos I have promise my friend dat i won't be sad anymore...
We must learn how to forgive and forget.The things tht had pass,we must not think bout it anymore...Be Happy~=)

wish Min-Wei happy sixteen birthday

2009-04-25T22:09:00.000+08:00

Today is Min-wei sixteen birthday!i think she's celebrating wif her friends.But i'm here to wish you...=)

This is for Min-wei,
On your birthday,
I wish u much pleasure and joy;
I hope all your wishes can come true.
May each hour and minute filled with delight,
And your birthday will be perfect for you!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!
&
I am thankful to have a friend like you,
Hope our friendship will never end
And you will always be there when i need you,

For you are my best friend
XD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIN-WEI

Min-wei =)

About me~xD

2009-04-25T17:44:00.000+08:00

001. Real Name: chan chia ying
002. Nickname(s):Ying ying
003. Age: 13
004. Horoscope: aquarius
005. Gender: female
006. Elementary: Don't noe dont care dont wanna noe!
007. Primary School: Methodist Girls School
008. Secondary School:Same~
009. College: Not yet....still so young laa
010. Hair Colour: Blackish-brownish...
011. Hair Length: long
012. Loud or Quiet: loud and quiet oso got
013. Sweats or Jeans :Jeans for sure
014. Phone or Camera: phone and camera!!!Blek!
015. Health Freak: Computer says nooo.....
016.Drink or Smoke:none lah...
017. Do you have a crush on someone:No!!!how many times mus i repeat?
018. Eat or Drink: eat then drink la wat else...
019. Piercings:none
020. Tattoos: i dont have one n i hate it!
021. Social or Anti-Social: Social duh!
022. Righty or lefty: righty and proud of it
023. First piercing:I dont have one
024. First relationship:none
025. First Best Friend:E-wei
026.First Award:I dont have one...haih
027. First Kiss: computer says stupid Q!NO!
028. First Pet: doggy...*cute*
029. First Big Vacation: er..none
030. First Love at first sight: neva la..
031. First Big Birthday: i hav no idea
032. First Surgery : nope dont have one
033. First sport you joined:tarik tali i think.Dunno
034. Orange or Apple juice: apple
035. Rock or Rap:dunno...
036. Country or Screamo: dunno
038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera: BRITNEY SPEARS ...WOOHOOO....CIRCUS
039. Night or Day: day
040. Sun or Moon: sun...but not the very hot wan
041. TV or Internet: both
042. Playstation or xbox: none
043. Kiss or hug: hug
044. Iguana or turtle: i don wan!i hate dat!
045. Spider or bee: none..
046. Fall or spring:both
047. Limewire or iTunes: none ares
048. Soccer or baseball: soccer
049. Eating: sushi!!!
050. Drinking: apple juice
051. Excitement level: dono la ask stupid Q wan
052. I'm about to: ans Q 053
053. Listening to: breakaway
054. Plan for today: wait 4 facebook comments...
055. Waiting for: Dono
056. Energy Level: A little sleepy.
057. Thinking of someone:no...
058. Want kids :dunnoare
.059. Want to get married?:doonoo
060. When?: Wo Bu che tau
061. How many kids do you want: DUNNO!!!
062. Any name on the mind: yup Carina,Jolene,Shannen and Winnie
065. Mellow future or wild:dono
066. Something you would never try: killing a person
067. When do you want to die: dono la siao~
067Which is the better in the boy/girl you like(in the future): i dont even understand the Q
068. Lips or Eyes: I dono
069. Romantic or Funny?: funny
070. Shorter or Taller?: taller
071. Protective or Caring?: Caring kua
072. Romantic or Spontaneous?:dunno
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms?: I dont know...
074. Sensitive or Loud?: both
075. Hook-up or Relationship?: dont noe dont care dont wanna noe
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant?: dono
077. Muscular or normal: Normal
078. Kissed a stranger: no
079. Broken a bone: no
080. Lost glasses or contacts: no
081. Ran away from home: no lah of cos!SWEAT!!!
082. Held a gun/knife for self defence: for self defense then ok lah
083. Killed somebody: no ur Q so stupid
084. Broken some one's heart:dunno
085. Had your heart broken: yes!
086. Been arrested: no...
087. Cried when someone died: yes
088. Liked a friend more than a friend: NOPE.
089.Do you believe in Yourself:not really
090. Miracles: no
091. Love at first sight:siao
092. Heaven:no
093. Santa Claus: no
094. Tooth Fairy: no
095. Kiss in the first date: no
096. Angels: no
Answer Truthfully
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now? : nooo
098. Are you seriously happy with where you're in life now?: yeah ok ok la but i got trouble wif friends...but now ok ok d lah!
099. Do you believe in God? :yes
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people

1. don
2. wan
3. lah
4. !!!!
5. lazy
6. to
7. tag
8. ppl
9. haha
10. =)